If you love me, let me go.

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 02:17:43 GMT

Title: Fated
Characters: Kanjani8, KAT-TUN, Domoto Koichi, Takizawa Hideaki, and other characters
Pairing: RyoJin(main) and other pairings that might come up.
Genre: a bit of angst, but overall comedy + CUTE & FLUFFY
Summary: What happens when the Domoto family (which consisted of Kanjani8) are forced to live in Tokyo, and befriend the Takizawa family (which consisted of KAT-TUN)?

“Jinjin ran away from home!?!?”

“We tried to stop him, but…” Yuichi said with guilt in his voice.

“BUT WHAT?” Hideaki asked urgently.

“Jin said that if we ever try to stop him from running away, he’d hate us forever, including you, Hideaki.” Yuichi said as he carefully examine Hideaki’s face turning from red to green, then to the rich colour of purple.

“WHAT!?!? When did Jinjin learn to talk like that?” Hideaki asked as he pulled his hair with his angry hands.

His five brothers rolled their eyes and thought to themselves, “Who else could it be? It’s all because of the promises you made Jin to make when he was a kid. Of course he’d use that promise to threaten us…” Reminder of the promises: never like anyone else better than Hideaki, in other words, never hate Hideaki

“Where are you, my Jinjin? What’ll happen to him? He’ll be all alone outside, scared and hungry. He’s never been on his own before… What if something happen to him?” Hideaki wailed.

“It is true… Jin’s naïve and innocence never failed to get him into danger… And he’s pretty dull with directions. He could get lost from just walking to the supermarket down the street…” Junno added. Koki punched his brother on the arm to shut him up, “Don’t make things worse.”

Hideaki sobbed even more as he hid his head in Yuichi’s shoulder, wetting his shirt with tears and other liquid substances.

“Don’t be so sad, where else can Jin go? He must be at the Domoto house, so don’t worry, he won’t get eaten or anything.” As Yuichi tried to comfort his older brother, he carelessly slipped out the piece of information.

At the moment, Hideaki, Junnosuke, Koki and Tatsuya widened their eyes as if they discovered another planet.

“You mean you never knew that…?” Yuichi felt guilty, because if he knew his brothers were as dull as that, he wouldn’t have told them where Jin’s hiding spot was.

Jinjin… I’m sorry…

“Ok everyone, let’s prepare and get out little Jinjin back! Mission retrieve-our-little-Jinjin back, START!”

With that said, the Takizawa brothers set out on their journey with determination on their faces.

* * * * *

On the Domoto house… things were different…

“I’m home!” Ryo yelled at the house.

“Welcome h- “ Subaru greeted his brother half way, but stopped as he saw the little bundle that was hiding behind his brother.

“Wha… Jin?” Shingo asked as he came down the stairs with Yu.

“Tell everyone to come to the living room, I have an announcement to make.” Ryo said to his brother, but the gentle look in his eyes were directing to Jin all the time.

“But… Hiroki and Tadayoshi are playing video games, and you know how hard is it to get their eyes off the game. And Ryuhei and Shota are-“ Shingo stopped his sentence when he saw the deathly glare from Ryo’s eyes.

“O-okay… Subaru and I will get them…” Subaru and Shingo ran away from Ryo and Jin, and escaped.

“Did I cause too much trouble? I don’t mean to… Maybe I’ll just stay somewhere else.” As Jin felt guilty and decided to open the door and leave, Ryo stopped him and held his hand.

“Don’t worry, you’re not troubling anyone. Just be yourself and relax.” Ryo gave Jin a reassuring look.

“O-okay…” Jin blushed when he saw Ryo’s eyes. His heart melted when he heard Ryo’s gentle words.

“Oh my god… Ryo’s so great in so many ways…” Jin thought inside his mind, but he had no idea that the blush on his face made Ryo adores him even more.

“Oh god, He’s just SO CUTE!!!!!!” Ryo screamed in his mind.

Now that everyone except for Koichi (who is still at work) is in the living room, Ryo was prepared to make his little speech.

Jin trembled as he wrapped his arm around Ryo’s, burying his head behind Ryo’s broad shoulder.

“Don’t worry…” Ryo said as he gently patted Jin’s head and held onto his hand.

All seven of Ryo’s brother’s eyes went wide with shock and astonishment when they saw the gentle action coming from RYO, their evil, mean brother, RYO. The same Ryo who would threaten them into doing all his chores for him. All of their mouths were opened wide, and Tadayoshi’s quiet “oh my god” can be heard loud and clear.

In a position where Jin can’t see Ryo’s eyes, Ryo glared at his brothers, and all of their faces returned back to normal.

“Jin and I are going out.”

As sounds of gasps are heard and eyes shot wide, Jin hid his head in Ryo’s chest with hot embarrassment again.

“It’s okay, we were going to tell them anyways, don’t be shy. I want them to know that you’re mine.” Ryo said with the rich tenderness and love again, sending his brothers in a deeper shock.

“YOU TWO ARE GOING OUT!?” All seven of the Domoto brothers yelled out in unison.

Jin’s apple red blush colour deepened, and he played with his fingers to ease up his embarrassment.

“Oh my god… He’s just too cute!!” Ryo yelled out in his mind as he resisted himself to just hide Jin in his embrace, and squeal out loud.

As the minutes pass by, each one of Ryo’s brothers shut their mouths, and behaved themselves.

“But… Does Hideaki – kun knows?” Subaru asked.

“Yes. And he doesn’t approve of this.” Ryo could feel Jin’s hand tightened in his grasp, and wrapped his arm around Jin’s waist as support.

“WHAT!?” Once again, the Domoto brothers are shocked.

“DO YOU HAVE TO GET SHOCK BY EVERYTHING I SAY!?” Ryo was getting annoyed now.

“Sorry… but everything you say today IS shocking.” Yu said as he dodged the death glare ray sent out by Ryo.

“So… what happens now?” Subaru asked carefully, not wanting to die under his brother’s deathly glare.

“Jin ran away from home. And he’s staying at our place.” Ryo’s arms tightened around Jin’s waist as he could feel his lover trembling in his arms.

“EHH!?!?” They were shocked, again.

“Wow, Jin, that was so brave of you to run away.” Shota commented with astonishment.

“Um… I’m sorry if I’m disturbing you, but I’m going to stay here for a while I think…” Jin bowed his head to each of Ryo’s brothers.

“You don’t have to be so polite, they’re just my brothers.”

O_o ß That was the brothers’ faces when Ryo said that.

*Ca-chik…

The sound of Koichi coming back can be heard in the living room.

“Eh? How com everyone’s in the living room?” Koichi asked as he put away his jacket and other work related stuff.

“Jin? What are you doing here so late? Do you want to sleep over tonight?” Koichi smiled as he patted Jin on the head.

“Um… Koichi… I have some news for you.”

“Wow Jinjin… I never knew you had it in you. Don’t worry, you can stay here as long as you like.” Koichi said as he was prepared to go up to his room.

“EHH!?” The seven brothers’ mouth opened wide with shock again. How many times have they been shocked today?

“But, what about Hideaki – kun? He must be rampaging.” Subaru was the sensible one with the sensible question.

Ryo could feel Jin trembling again, so he gave Jin a reassuring gesture, and continued to listen to Koichi’s solution.

“I’ll talk to him later. For now, just enjoy your stay here, Jin. I’ll take care of everything.” Koichi smiled and patted on Jin’s head again.

“Okay… Thank you for letting me stay here.” Jin bowed to everyone in the room again.

Koichi chuckled and said, “You don’t have to be so gracious, just act like you do at home.”

Ryo thought, “Aw, what a cute kid. Just want to pinch his cheeks and hug him to death.”

With that, Koichi went up stairs to take a shower, and the rest of the family just resumed to their activities.

Jin and Ryo just watched television happily, with their hands entwined, and with Jin’s head leaning on Ryo’s shoulder.

They ate pasta (Jin’s favourite) for dinner, and when they were in the middle of monopoly, and doorbell rang, along with furious knocks and bangings on the door.

“Well, I didn’t think they’d come this fast, but they’re here.” Koichi said as he went to get the door.

Jin nervously held on to Ryo’s hand, and Ryo did the same. The seven brothers were just waiting anxiously in the background to see what will happen next in this shocking day.

“JINJIN! JINJIN HONEY!!!” Hideaki rushed inside the house the second Koichi opened the door, along with his army of five other brothers.

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Well, i lied, i updated =P

Sorry if this chapter is not that interesting... but the interesting part is coming up, i promise! Please wait until the next chapter =)

Thank you for evryone who commented =) Comments are loved! and i hope to see more comments of the fic from ppl who read it <3

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 04:30:06 GMT

Title: Fated
Characters: Kanjani8, KAT-TUN, Domoto Koichi, Takizawa Hideaki, and other characters
Pairing: RyoJin(main) and other pairings that might come up.
Genre: a bit of angst, but overall comedy
Summary: What happens when the Domoto family (which consisted of Kanjani8) are forced to live in Tokyo, and befriend the Takizawa family (which consisted of KAT-TUN)?

Ryo and Jin had been going out for almost a month now, and neither of them told any of their family members (except for Kazuya, he knows already) about their relationship.

Not that Ryo doesn’t want to share the piece of news with his family, but it was Jin that doesn’t. Jin has this feeling that telling his brothers would involve in an over protected tantrum, especially from Hideaki.

Why? Because Jin remembers when he was a kid, Hideaki would always say…

“Jinjin~” Hideaki picked up his 3 year old brother and smiled.

“Do you like the ice cream I bought you?”

Little Jin nodded while eating his strawberry flavoured ice cream, and he was getting ice cream all over his face in the process of nodding.

“That’s great, so you have to remember that you’ll always be my little brother, and you cant like anyone else better than you like me, okay?” Hideaki wiped the ice cream away on little Jin’s face.

Jin nodded.

Then there was this time…

“Jinjin~” Hideaki patted his 10 years old brother and smiled.

“Do you like the power ranger action figure I bought you?”

Little Jin nodded and played with his toy.

“That’s good. You have to promise me that you’ll always like me than anyone else, okay?” Hideaki said.

“Promised.” Jin said as he held up his pinky towards Hideaki.

Hideaki smiled and hooked his pinky to Jin’s.

And there is that time…

“Jinjin~”

“Do you like Disneyland? I’ll bring to you any places that you want to go, but you have to promise me that you’ll never like anyone else better than your brother, me. Okay?” Hideaki smiled as he walked Jin to a roller coaster ride line up.

13 years old Jin nodded and smiled.

But when Jin was 15, he said something that Hideaki would never want to hear in the rest of his life.

Jin didn’t ask to go to anywhere anymore. He didn’t ask Hideaki to buy him any more stuff. Hideaki was confused, and when he asked Jin, he got an answer that crushed his world.

“Jinjin will always like Hideaki the best, and no one else.”

When Hideaki first heard Jin’s words, his eyes watered with joyful tears, but his face immediately froze at Jin’s second sentence.

“But I’m grown up now, I don’t need to rely so much on you now, I can be okay on my own, so you can have some free time on your own.”

Jin remembered that after he said those words, Hideaki threw a tantrum, and cried for three days in his room.

“Jin has to grow up sometime, don’t get so emotional.” Yuichi tried to comfort his older brother, but failed.

“But I don’t want him to grow up!!! I want him to be my precious little brother all the time!!” Hideaki wailed loudly.

Even with Jin comforting him, Hideaki didn’t get better for at least 3 months.

With that memory in mind… Jin decided that it was better not to tell Hideaki about Ryo…

* * * * *

It’s almost a month since Ryo and Jin got together, and Jin wanted to celebrate their “one-month” with something special.

Jin was having trouble for his gift to Ryo, seeing as Jin had never been in a relationship before.

Hideaki had been noticing Jin a lot lately, because Jin always had a troubled face on since the past week. Whenever he asks Jin about the matter, Jin would just blush, and avoid his question. Things were getting suspicious…

So Hideaki decided to investigate. =D

He asked every one of his brothers about what was wrong with Jin, and he found out that Jin has someone he likes. Even though Hideaki was very shocked and hurt, he stayed calm. And of course, Kazuya didn’t say anything.

So Hideaki decided to sneak into Jin’s school and pretend to be one of the students to spy on his little brother, with the help of Jin’s principle, who happens to be his dear friend.

But of course, Hideaki forgot that his little brother Jinjin is a very innocent and see through-able person. He found out immediately who is the boy that had Jinjin’s heart. He found out because that boy even came to their doorstep to walk Jin to school, and Jin, ran out of the house in 2 seconds and took that boy’s hand, and started walking to school, leaving Hideaki in the background.

What really got Hideaki to make sure that Jin was in love with that boy was the happy smile Jin had on his face when he saw that boy. The undeniable joyful atmosphere Jin lit up was so bright and cheerful, it was blinding Hideaki’s eyes. The ray of love was shining from the two of them like a Christmas tree at Christmas’ Eve.

What shocked Hideaki the most was the boy that has Jin’s heart. It was his best friend Koichi’s little brother, Domoto Ryo!!

Hideaki cried all day in his room, and when Jin came back from school, he walked straight up to Jin, and yelled at him.

“HOW CAN YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND? YOU’RE ONLY IN HIGH SCHOOL!” Hideaki’s face was red with anger.

“WHAT ABOUT YOUR EDUCATION? DON’T YOU CARE ABOUT IT ANYMORE?” Hideaki also yelled out a lot of hurtful words, all because he was jealous of Ryo.

Wanting to keep his little brother for himself, Hideaki gave out an order that sent Jin in tears.

“YOU’RE BREAKING UP WITH HIM! YOU’LL NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN! BETTER YET, YOU’RE CHANGING SCHOOL!” Hideaki yelled, and Jin ran to his room with tears on his face.

The other five of his brothers just watched this in front of their eyes, and didn’t say anything. They couldn’t. None of them wanted to get in Hideaki’s way when it came to protecting their little brother Jin. Plus, they didn’t trust Ryo to be with their little Jin anyways, so they’re on Hideaki’s side this time.

When Hideaki came home from work the next day, he received devastating news.

“Jinjin ran away from home?!?!?”

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I need to make this clear, Hideaki only loves Jin as his little brother!! Hideaki plays somewhat of a father to Jin. And i promise no more angst! I want this fic to be cute and fluffy =D

I MIGHT not be able to update on the weekend, sorry ><

Comments are loved =) HUGs to everyone to reads and loves my fic. <3

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 03:58:16 GMT

Title: Fated
Characters: Kanjani8, KAT-TUN, Domoto Koichi, Takizawa Hideaki, and other characters
Pairing: RyoJin(main) and other pairings that might come up.
Genre: a bit of angst, but overall comedy
Summary: What happens when the Domoto family (which consisted of Kanjani8) are forced to live in Tokyo, and befriend the Takizawa family (which consisted of KAT-TUN)?

Jin stayed inside the balcony for a while, with Kazuya leaned motionless against the balcony door.

Kazuya wiped away the tear that slid out his eye, and decided on something. His face returned back to normal, and opened the door.

When the door was open, Jin turned his head around, and was surprised to see his brother standing at the door.

“Kazuya…?” Jin stuttered and blushed, curious to whether or not his brother saw Ryo confessing to him.

Kazuya didn’t say anything, and closed the door behind him.

He walked up to Jin without a word, pulled Jin into his embrace.

Kazuya then lifted up Jin’s chin with his hand, and stared at him. Kazuya stared at Jin with this emotion so thick and heavy, it contained all of his feelings towards his brother.

Lost within Kazuya’s eyes, Jin was speechless. He didn’t know why Kazuya acted the way he was at the moment, and he didn’t know what the emotion in his brother’s eyes meant. He was confused.

“Jin…” Kazuya leaned in, and crushed his lips against his brother’s.

Jin was shocked and dumbfounded, and his mind was blank. Kazuya’s kiss was so gentle and tender, he wanted to cry. He didn’t know why, but he could feel the heavy sheets of feelings transferred to him through the kiss, and he had the urge to cry. Soon, Kazuya’s tongue slid into Jin’s mouth, and slowly danced its way thoroughly inside Jin’s mouth.

Its not that Kazuya hadn’t kissed Jin before, but this time it was different. They would always just kiss each other out of brotherly love, and those kisses were short and playful, and always on the cheeks, but not this time. The atmosphere was different and dangerous, and Jin was scared.

Jin started to struggle out of Kazuya’s embrace, but failed. He didn’t want Kazuya to act this way. He didn’t want Kazuya to kiss him this way. He felt like he was betraying Ryo… Why?

A tear slid out of Jin’s eyes, and Kazuya finally stopped, and he pulled away from Jin.

The awkwardness dawned on them, and no one said anything.

Jin’s eyes were beginning to get red, and he was trembling. His lips were beginning to swollen, and he wrapped his arms around himself, as if protecting himself from Kazuya.

Kazuya on the other hand, looked devastated. He already knew the answer. His brother can never return his feelings.

“Jin…” Kazuya called out his brother’s name with a voice so low, it was almost inaudible.

Jin backed up with one step, but stopped. He shouldn’t be scared of Kazuya. He should ask him what was the matter, because Kazuya wouldn’t have kissed him like that if nothing were wrong.

Seeing Jin backed away from him, Kazuya’s broken heart ached more and more. But after just a second, Jin rushed to him, and jumped into his arms.

“Jin?” Kazuya was dumfounded this time.

“Kazuya… I don’t know what’s wrong, but you can tell me anything. I’ll always be there for you.” Jin looked up and stared at his brother.

Kazuya’s eyes were wide with shock, but he felt a mix of emotions inside that was way more serious than what Jin thought was wrong.

Kazuya gave Jin a smile, but the smile looked so messed up with the depression he was feeling, it looked fake.

“Jin… were you scared? Tell me the truth.” Kazuya knew the answer, but he just wanted to make sure.

“…” Jin didn’t say anything because he wasn’t sure if it was the right time to say yes or no, seeing as Kazuya looked too miserable right then.

“Don’t lie to me, Jin. Just tell me the truth. I won’t be mad. Were you scared that I kissed you like that?” Kazuya held Jin’s face towards his.

“…Yes. You were so scary when you kissed me. The brother I knew wouldn’t have done that… Kazuya, what’s the matter? Is there something bothering you?” Jin still didn’t get the message that his brother has feelings for him, and dumbly asked.

Kazuya felt like dying. The word “brother” was crushing him. He knows for sure now, but he couldn’t let Jin know how devastated he was, because he couldn’t bare to see Jin get hurt. He didn’t want Jin to be bothered by his feelings, so he decided to lie.

“I’m okay Jin. Sorry if I scared you, I won’t ever do that again, okay?” Kazuya faked his smile and patted Jin’s head.

Jin was still worried, but he could tell that his brother didn’t want to talk about the matter any further, and he didn’t want to rush him.

“Okay… But if you want to talk about anything at all, I’m be there.” Jin seemed to have completely forgot about Kazuya’s action before, and smiled innocently at his brother like nothing had happened.

At that moment, Kazuya decided to protect that innocent smile of Jin’s forever. Even though he couldn’t be with Jin, he would still love and protect him.

When Ryo saw Jin and Kazuya came out of the balcony holding hands, a fire of jealousy lit up in his heart.

When Jin made sure for the hundredth time that Kazuya would be okay, he went off on his own and enjoyed the celebration party.

On the other side, Kazuya saw the angry glare coming from Ryo’s eyes, and walked up to him, “We need to talk.”

Ryo and Kazuya walked to the corner of the house, where the other people cannot hear their conversation at all.

“What?” Ryo’s attitude was as bad as Kazuya’s evil math teacher.

“I know you like Jin.” Kazuya ignored Ryo’s attitude, showing no fear at all.

Ryo twitched a little, but continued his bad attitude, “So? What are you going to do about it?”

Kazuya lifted one of his eyebrows, and swiftly grabbed onto Ryo’s collar.

“You ever hurt Jin in any way at all, I swear on my life I will crush your skull with you own guts.” With that said, Kazuya let go of Ryo’s collar, and turned around and left.

When Kazuya was still around audible distance, Ryo called out, “I’m sure of my feelings, and I’ll make sure Jin won’t get hurt, I’ll make sure he will be happy.”

Kazuya stopped walking for a second, and waved goodbye to Ryo as if he was approving him.

As long as Jin is happy…

* * * * *

After that party, Kazuya stopped walking Jin to school, because that as Ryo’s job. At first, Jin complained a little, but his blush was obvious when Ryo came to his house.

“But Kazuya…” Jin complained with a pleading look in his eyes, and also with a mix emotion of… embarrassment and eagerness?

“I can’t always walk you to school, Jin. Plus, I joined the baseball team last week, so I have to get up early every morning. Let Domoto-Kun walk you to school from now on.” Kazuya’s face twitched a little when he mentioned Ryo’s name, but smiled sweetly at Jin again.

Kazuya then left the house. When he closed the door, his eyes watered out tears. He didn’t want to let Jin go, but he knew within his heart, that he wasn’t Jin’s precious one.

In the past week, Ryo had been walking Jin to school every single day. He would talk to Jin about just anything in class, and he would always take care of Jin. He would block away any perverts that tried to touch Jin or talk Jin into going to places with bribes of food and shiny stuff.

In the past week, Jin’s feelings towards Ryo deepened. Whenever he was around Ryo, his heart started to beat faster and faster, and he could feel his face burn up to a thousand degrees. He didn’t know what those feelings meant, but he felt so happy around Ryo.

The warm feeling that he gets whenever Ryo was with him felt so right in Jin’s heart. He likes that warm feeling. He likes the gentle gestures Ryo has, and he likes the luscious emotion Ryo has in his eyes whenever he was looking at him.

Whenever Jin’s hands touch Ryo’s accidently, his heart would beat so fast, he was sure the whole school could hear it. He didn’t know what to do or react whenever he was with Ryo. He didn’t want to embarrass himself in front of Ryo, he wants Ryo to like him… but why?

The same situations continued for another week.

Finally, one day, when it was lunchtime, Ryo pulled Jin out of the classroom, and went into a deserted room in the school, and locked the door.

Jin was still at shock when Ryo pulled him out of the classroom so suddenly, but he let Ryo dragged him around anyways.

Now that Ryo and Jin were in the same room, Jin panicked. Whenever he was with Ryo, there would always be people around them to ease up the strong emotion that he was feeling. Now that they’re alone in a close up space, Jin’s face blushed ten times harder than before.

“Um… Why did you bring me here?” Jin asked as he played with his fingers as a gesture to distract his eyes from Ryo’s face.

When Jin was playing with his fingers, Ryo was shouting in his mind, “OH MY GOD, HOW CAN YOU BE SO CUTE?!?!?!”

Ryo calmed himself down a bit, and held onto Jin’s hand, and forced Jin to look at his eyes.

Jin’s head was lifted up, and his watery innocent eyes that reflected Ryo’s perfectly carved face was like an invite for Ryo to just hide Jin away from the rest of the world, and just claim Jin as his own.

The crimson on Jin’s cheeks emphasized the beautiful snow-white skin that Jin has, and every feature of Jin’s body was just attacking Ryo’s beating heart as the seconds go by.

“Jin… It’s been 2 weeks already… Do you have your answer?” Ryo asked his question as he tightened his grip on Jin’s hands.

“I… I don’t know…”

Although Ryo was a little bit disappointed with Jin’s answer, his hopes were still alive.

“Well… How do you feel about me?” Ryo asked eagerly. He wanted to know that Jin felt the same way as he does for Jin. He wanted Jin to be with him. He wanted to claim Jin’s heart.

“I…” Jin hesitated on whether or not to tell the truth, but when he saw Ryo’s face, the truth just came out of his mouth like he does it every single day.

“Well… Whenever I see you, my heart would beat faster, and my face would heat up. I’d get this warm tingly feeling when you touch my hand or when you showed that you care about me. And when you’re not around, I would panic and look for you. I feel so happy when you’re around me. I like the warm feeling that lit up in my heart whenever I see you. I don’t why this happens…” Jin bent down his face to hide his embarrassment. He felt so naked in front of Ryo when he confessed all of his feelings out.

With an explosion of joy that washed through Ryo’s heart, Ryo pulled Jin into his embrace, and tightly wrapped his arms around Jin’s waist.

“Huh?” Jin was confused at Ryo’s joy, but he also enjoyed the hug. He felt so warm and happy in Ryo’s arms. He placed his head on Ryo’s firm chest, and closed his eyes.

“So… what do my feelings mean?” Jin asked curiously as Ryo pulled Jin out of his embrace, but kept each other at an arm’s length.

“It means that you feel the same way I feel about you. Jin, you love me. Just like I love you. I know because of all those feelings you told me about earlier, I felt the exact same way.” Ryo stared at Jin as Jin’s face reddened with the beautiful crimson colour.

“Really…?” Jin was still hesitant, but he seemed to believe Ryo’s words.

“Yes… Do you want to be around me 24/7?” Ryo asked as he held onto Jin’s hand.

Jin blushed a bit more, and nodded.

“Does it hurt when you see me being nice to some other person?” Ryo asked again.

Jin didn’t like to say yes to that question, but the answer was yes. He hated to even think about Ryo being nice to someone else other than him, so he nodded.

“Do you like it when I kissed you?” Ryo asked carefully as he examined Jin’s beautiful face.

Jin twitched a little, and his face’s crimson deepened a little, and he nodded.

“See? I feel the exact same way. Jin, you and I are in love with each other.” Ryo said happily as he pulled Jin into his hug again.

Jin seemed to be pretty convinced this time, because he let his arms wrap around Ryo’s neck.

Ryo let one of his arms free, and pocketed something out.

He then picked Jin up, and let him sit on top of one of the desks.

Now, Ryo is standing in front of Jin, who was sitting on a desk.

Ryo opened his hand, and revealed a necklace. It was a blue globe necklace with silver designs on it. It was simple, but it was elegant.

With the other hand, Ryo pulled out the same necklace, but will gold designs, out of his collar to show Jin.

“Jin, do you want me as your boyfriend? I promise I’ll never hurt you in any way, and I’ll try my best to make you happy. I love you, Jin.” Ryo said as he offered the necklace to Jin. Ryo’s eyes were filled with such a luscious emotion of love, it was suffocating, but Jin liked that.

Jin’s eyes watered a little, he nodded, and he gracefully accepted the necklace.

With Jin’s approval, a thousand fireworks lit up in Ryo’s sky.

He then helped Jin to put on the necklace. After putting the necklace around Jin’s neck, Ryo asked, “Can I kiss you?”

When the crimson on Jin’s face was finally fading, Ryo’s question deepened the crimson on Jin’s snow-white face all over again.

With an embarrassed face, Jin nodded.

Holding onto Jin’s hands, Ryo leaned in, and his lips touched Jin’s.

The kiss was so tender and sweet, it was everything that is wonderful and amazing.

If you look from the outside window, you could see two beautiful young men kissing in the classroom, with the blessing of the sunlight. It was such a beautiful scene that no one would want to disturb that moment.

TO BE CONTINUED~

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Sorry for such a late update, I've been so busy with schooll TT^TT
I might be able to update next week too, but i cant update anything near exam periods, sorry.

Next Chapter: Hideaki doesnt approve of Jin and Ryo's relationship, and neither does the rest of the Takizawa brothers. Interesting conflict happens =)

Tue, 27 May 2008 01:21:23 GMT

Title: Fated
Characters: Kanjani8, KAT-TUN, Domoto Koichi, Takizawa Hideaki, and other characters
Pairing: RyoJin(main) and other pairings that might come up.
Genre: comedy?
Summary: What happens when the Domoto family (which consisted of Kanjani8) are forced to live in Tokyo, and befriend the Takizawa family (which consisted of KAT-TUN)?

When Kazuya heard a faint “Help…” across the hallway, his heart stopped beating for a second. He thought, “This can’t be good…” and started running towards the source of the sound.

When Kazuya turned around a corner, he saw Jin and Ryo, both on the ground.

Jin was in Ryo’s arms, and Ryo was breathing air into Jin.

Kazuya was mad at first, but then he realized things couldn’t be as simple as what he thought, because somewhere in his mind, his common sense was still there.

He still remembered the faint call of help earlier, which means Jin is in trouble. He recalled last night’s incident, where Jin was still wet from head to toe when he was outside his door.

In a split second, Kazuya rushed to where Ryo and Jin was, and pushed Ryo away from his brother.

“JIN!” Kazuya understood immediately what the situation was, and searched for Jin’s puffer. Panicking, Kazuya realized that Jin didn’t bring his puffer with him, as always.

“What are you doing? He’s dying! Don’t just sit there!” Seeing as Kazuya couldn’t help at all, Ryo tried to push Kazuya out of the way, but Kazuya didn’t budge at all.

In a split second, Kazuya picked Jin up, and shouted at Ryo, “Call the teachers and nurses, I’m taking Jin to the hospital!”

Ryo had no choice but to follow Kazuya’s orders, and ran the opposite direction of where Kazuya was running.

Somehow, at that moment, Ryo wished that he could be the one beside Jin.

* * * * *

“…The patient will be fine with a few days of rest. His trachea wasn’t working properly, and was swollen due to his fever. We used medication to treat that already, so the patient’s trachea should be working normally. Also, the patient should always carry his puffer with him, in case of emergency. An asthma patient should always be taken care of immediately when they are sick, because sicknesses like fever could seriously affect their health.” The doctor finished his long speech, and left.

“Thanks doctor…” Kazuya nodded at the doctor, but his eyes never let his brother.

“Jin… what should I do with you?” Kazuya reached his hand out and held onto his brother’s.

When he recall today’s incident, when he saw Ryo giving Jin CPR, his heart would ache and his mind be hurt. He knew Ryo was just trying to save his brother’s life, but he still couldn’t help but be jealous and mad.

He looked at Jin, his brother. Jin has always looked so perfect in Kazuya’s eyes. Ever since he can remember, Kazuya has been attracted to Jin. Jin has this amazing presence that is so undeniable and great, Kazuya felt like Jin was just an intangible object that is forever out of his reach. His innocence and mind is so pure, that it makes everyone want to protect Jin from anything that would disturb this innocence, and Kazuya was no exception. Kazuya has been protecting Jin for as long as he could remember. Even though Jin was his older brother, he was seen as the most childish and cherished youngest brother in the household.

“Mmmm…” the sound of Jin waking up bought Kazuya back from his train of thoughts.

“Jin…?” Kazuya helped to support Jin as his brother was trying to sit up.

“Kazuya…? What… Where am I?” Jin asked as he pressed his hand against his forehead, trying to compress all the pain back inside his body.

“You’re at the hospital, don’t you remember anything?” Somehow, Kazuya had hoped that Jin wouldn’t remember anything at all, and let Jin and him be the way they were before.

“Not really… I remember going to school and feeling a burning in my head… and then I was in class… Then someone dragged me out of the classroom…” Jin continued as he pressed his hand on his throat. “Then I couldn’t breathe at all, and it felt so… suffocating… but someone was… was… giving me… CPR…” Jin’s face turned crimson as he slowly remembered today’s incidents.

Then, neither of them said anything for a while, until Jin decided to change the topic.

“Kazuya…” Jin asked as he grabbed onto Kazuya’s sleeve.

“Hmm?” Kazuya questioned.

“Kazuya… are you still mad at me? If you are, I’m sorry. I won’t ever make you mad again. Please don’t stay mad at me, I can’t take it. I can’t stand not being able to talk to you…” Jin’s voice slowly turned into sobs as he confessed.

Somehow, a warm feeling was lit up in Kazuya’s heart, and that felt good. He smiled, and patted on Jin’s head.

“I wasn’t mad at you, but I am now.” Kazuya pretended to be angry, and Jin believed him.

“Why didn’t you carry your puffer with you today?” Kazuya crossed his arms in front of his chest and asked.

“I-… I forgot… Besides, it was just today that I got an asthma attack, I would be fine at any other day…” Jin pouted and played with his fingers.

Sighing, Kazuya shook his head and held onto Jin’s hand again.

“Just remember to bring your puffer with you all the time. I was so worried about you today.” Kazuya leaned in and kissed Jin on the forehead.

Just when Jin was about to say something, five people were trying to burst into the room, but Hideaki succeeded first, and jumped onto the bed where Jin lied on.

“JIN HONEY!!!!” Hideaki screamed as he pulled Jin into his bear hug. “Oh my god! I was so worried! Are you okay?” Hideaki exclaimed as he put Jin on display, and let his eyes dance everywhere on Jin, checking for any bruises or scratches.

“Relax, Hideaki! You’re scaring him!” Koki said as he tried to pull Hideaki off of Jin.

“Jin, are you okay?” Yuichi and Tatsuya asked worriedly as they sat on the opposite side of the bed where Kazuya was.

“I’m fine, don’t worry.” Jin gave his older brothers an I’m-fine-so-don’t-worry smile.

While Junno and Koki were battling Hideaki to get off of Jin, the Domoto brothers came in.

“Hey.” Koichi greeted the family as he and his brothers squished into the hospital room.

“Koichi! Hi!” Hideaki got rid of his two brothers, and jumped in front of his friend.

“What brings you here?” Hideaki asked.

“I heard from Ryo that Jin was in a little trouble today and had to go to the hospital. So I decided to come here and visit.” Koichi smiled at Jin and nodded at the rest of the Takizawa brothers.

“Oh yea, I have you thank Ryo for saving my brother!” Hideaki jumped in front of Ryo and gave him one of his famous bear hugs.

“If it wasn’t for you today, I don’t know how Jinjin would have survived.” Hideaki said gracefully.

“Uh… no problem…” Ryo’s train of thoughts were disturbed by Hideaki’s suffocating hug.

Ryo was forced to stay at school until the school day was over, and he simply couldn’t wait that long. He didn’t know why, but he wanted to be the one at Jin’s side at that moment. He had never felt so worried and helpless before, not even for his brothers.

When Ryo first stepped in the hospital room, when he saw Kazuya holding onto Jin’s hand and kissing his forehead, he felt so… painful. It was as if someone was clutching onto his heart, and crushing it into million of pieces.

At that moment, Ryo had decided. As if his feelings were confirmed, and accepted, Ryo decided on something.

* * * * *

After four days, Jin was finally released from the “clutches of the hospital”, as Jin defined. Hideaki decided to have a celebration party at their house, and invited the Domoto brothers to join. The party was partly because of Jin’s recover, and partly because the Domoto brothers moved to Tokyo.

Of the past four days at school, the Domoto brothers and Takizawa brothers knew each other better, and some of them actually became friends. While some became friends, some just didn’t hate each other as much, and they got along okay. They greeted each other when they see the other in the school hallway, and made little conversations also. All of them got along except for Ryo and Kazuya.

It was Friday, and the two families got together at the Hideaki household and set up for the party after school.

They got chips and dip and fruits and beer and cake, because Jin likes cakes.

When the party started, conversations came alive, laughter and screams of joy can be heard everywhere in the house also.

When Ryo saw that Kazuya had gone to the bathroom, he came up to Jin. Ryo made sure that he would have a few minutes alone with Jin before, so that he could finish whatever he had to say to Jin.

“Hey.” Ryo walked up to Jin.

“Um, hi.” Taken by surprise, Jin greeted the boy in front of him.

“Mind if we talk for a bit?” Ryo tried to talk as politely as he could.

“Sure…” Jin agreed, and let Ryo drag him to the balcony.

When they reached the balcony of the house, Jin decided to start off the conversation first.

“Um, I heard that you were the one who saved me… thank you so much… I don’t how I would have been if you weren’t there, and I’m so sorry for pranking you the first time I saw you.” Jin bent down and apologized.

“Oh, um… It’s okay, don’t worry about it.” Ryo was taken in by surprise when Jin apologized, but recovered to his normal face as he pulled Jin back up face to face.

“Can I call you Jin?” Ryo asked as he set his eyes on Jin’s beautiful face.

“Sure! I’ll call you Ryo-chan… can I?” Jin smiled cheerfully.

“Of-of course!” Ryo stuttered, but continued.

“Um, I’ve been thinking about you for the past few days, and I’ve come to a conclusion.” Ryo shifted his face to the side to hide his blush.

“Thinking about me?” Jin asked as he tilted his head cutely.

When Ryo saw that action, he thought, “Oh my god, does he have to be that cute?”

Ryo pulled Jin into his embrace, and wrapped his arms around Jin’s waist.

Jin was dumbfounded, but to his surprise, he didn’t hate Ryo’s embrace. He actually liked the warm feeling that was building up in his heart when he was trapped in Ryo’s embrace.

“I like you, a lot. I know we’ve only met for a few days, but I know deep in my heart that I like you. I’ve never felt anything like this before. My heart would ache when I see you close to other people, and my heart will beat faster and faster whenever I would think about you.” Ryo was never good with expressing how he feels, and those words that came out of his mouth was his best effort already. His effort to try to express his feelings to Jin was the biggest step Ryo was willing to take.

“I… I don’t know what to say… I mean I like you, but I like a lot of people too. I like Hideaki, Koki, Junno, Tatsuya, Yuichi and Kazuya too.” Jin said as he placed his head on Ryo’s chest.

When Ryo heard Kazuya’s name, his arms around Jin’s waist tightened.

“That’s that the type of like I meant. I like you as in wanting to be with you, in a romantic way. Not brotherly or friendly love.” Ryo explained as he loosened the embrace between himself and Jin.

Ryo kept Jin in an arm’s length, so he could look at Jin’s confused look as his face became crimson.

Ryo then leaned in, and kissed Jin in the corner of his right eye. “Do you get what I mean now?”

Jin’s face became more of an apple red right now, and nodded.

Ryo chuckled at the beautiful scene in front of him, and said, “You don’t have to answer me right now. I’ll give you time to think about it, and time to get to know me. I just wanted you to know how I feel about you. Remember, I’ll always, always wait for you to return my feelings.” Ryo leaned in and kissed Jin on the forehead, and left the balcony.

Jin’s heart was beating so fast, he felt like fainting. The surroundings became blurry, and the kiss mark on his forehead and the corner of his right eye was burning on his face. The warm feeling that was building up felt so right and comfortable to Jin, and he liked that feeling.

When Ryo was out of sight, Jin couldn’t take it anymore, and kneeled on the ground, and started panting. He covered his burning red face with his hands, trying to hide is blush.

Everything was happening so fast, and Jin was so surprised. He felt like as if Ryo was right for him, because no one had ever made him feel so warm inside except for what Ryo just did.

Jin caressed the parts of his face where Ryo had kissed, and the blush on his face became more crimson as the seconds past.

* * * * *

On the other side, Kazuya stood silently by the balcony door.

He had never felt so helpless before, as if he already lost Jin to Ryo already, as if Jin was gone and out of his reach. He didn’t like this feeling. He felt as though his heart was thrown to the ground from a hundred feet high above the air, and no one was below to catch his heart, letting his heart shatter into a million of unfixable pieces.

A tear slipped out of Kazuya’s left eye, but he quickly wiped it away before anyone sees.

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Ryo acts fast ne? I just wanted the story to develop faster, because if you think that Ryo and Jin are going to end up together with peace and quie, then you're wrong! Even without Kame, there are still troubles ahead =P

Please leave comments, you can even suggest ideas if you want to xD Comments motivate me!

Sun, 25 May 2008 21:28:50 GMT

When Hideaki and Koichi got back to the Domoto’s new house, it was already late. After placing all the new furniture in the house, Hideaki found Kazuya supporting his brother down the stairs, with Jin wet from head to toe.

“What happen?” Hideaki rushed to the two of them, and asked worriedly.

“Nothing, I accidently poured some water on Jin while cleaning. “ Kazuya’s voice was cold and distanced.

“Ok… Jin, let’s go home now, and get you dried up. I see the house is pretty organized already.” Hideaki called all his brothers back, and they went home after saying goodbye to Koichi.

* * * * *

“Ok, there’s school tomorrow! Go to sleep, all of you! And Jin honey, remember to dry yourself up and take a hot bath before you go to sleep, okay?” Hideaki ordered his brothers, and went to his own room.

No one asked about what happened, because they all knew neither of them wanted to talk, so they all went to sleep without questions.

The Hideaki house is fairly big, so everyone has their own room. There are four stairways to four different corridors, and there are 2 rooms in each corridor. Kazuya and Jin’s rooms were in the same corridor, and their rooms are beside each other’s.

“Kazuya…?” Jin’s voice was almost inaudible.

“Go take a bath Jin, and go to sleep.” Kazuya said coldly, and shut his door without looking back.

A tear went down Jin’s eye, and he slumped to the ground.

“Kazuya… I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have been so childish… I promise I won’t ever prank them again… Kazuya… Please forgive me…” Towards the end of Jin’s apology, his voice turned into sobs.

“Kazuya…” Jin was crying quietly now, but Kazuya still didn’t say anything.

After waiting at his brother’s door for 30 minutes, Jin finally gave up, and went to his own room.

After making sure Jin was back at his room, Kazuya opened his door for a second, and closed it again. He slumped by his door, and sighed.

“Why am I so mad…? I knew it wasn’t Jin’s fault, but I… I felt so mad seeing Jin in another person’s arms…” Kazuya buried his head in between his hands.

When Jin got back to his room, he kept himself into a ball of protection, wrapping his trembling body with his hands, and cried.

He didn’t want Kazuya to be mad at him. He hated that suffocating feeling. He didn’t want Kazuya to hate him, he couldn’t stand it.

With his clothes and body still icy cold and wet, Jin stayed in that position for the whole night, and cried to sleep.

* * * * *

“Bbbrrringggg” All six alarm clocks went off at the same time, and all six of the brothers started groaning, but they got out of bed anyways.

Jin slowly opened his eyes, and he felt the pain in his head already. He was sitting on the cold hard floor all night yesterday, so his bones hurt as well. Groaning, Jin got up with the support of the wall, and went to the bathroom.

When he looked at himself in the mirror, Jin found tearstains everywhere on his face.

Jin wetted his towel with hot water, and wiped away his tearstains. Then, he took off his clothes from yesterday, and dried himself.

Seeing as he was going to be late for school, Jin didn’t bother to take a bath, so he just changed into another set of clothes, and went off.

Just when Jin was stepping out of his room, he felt like fainting, and his body was still trembling. He ignored all those uneasiness, and went out of his room.

At first, Jin peaked through Kazuya’s room, but he was disappointed, because his brother was gone already.

When Jin got downstairs, only two of his brothers were in the kitchen.

“Where are the other people?” Jin asked.

“Yuichi and Tatsuya already drove off, and Hideaki went to work already.” Koki said as he stuffed a toast into his mouth.

“Kazuya said he has a project, so he went to school already. He left about ten minutes ago.” Junno said as he poured half a glass of milk into his mouth.

“Ohhh…” Jin said disappointedly, and bent his head down. “He’s still mad at me…”, he whispered.

“Huh?” Junno asked as he cleaned up the table.

“Oh, nothing, I didn’t say nothing.” Jin lit up a weak smile to his brothers, and took a piece of bread from the table.

“Oh, okay then. Koki and I have a basketball game today, so we’re going to go now. Lock the doors before you go, okay?” Junno said as he dragged his other brother out the door.

“Okay…” Jin had never felt so lonely, and he hated being lonely. Kazuya would always walk with him to school, no matter what, but today… Jin shook his head, trying to erase his thoughts, and stood up. He didn’t felt like eating, so he out the piece of bread back into the breadbasket, and went off to school.

The sun was hot that day, and Jin felt so sick just walking under it. His face and lips were pale, and felt like fainting. After walking for 20 minutes, he finally arrived at his school.

* * * * *

“Okay everyone, get back to your seats.” The teacher clapped his hands two times, and everyone stopped talking and went back to their seats.

“We have a new student today. Actually, this school have 4 new students today, but we only have one in this class. His brothers are in a different class and grades.”

Everyone was chattering and talking about this topic. It was usual to have a new student at this time of the year, so everyone was curious.

“I hope it’s a girl, a hot sexy girl.” Male student A started drooling as he fantasized.

“No! I hope it’s gonna be a guy, and I hope he’s hot!” Female student A argued, but started fantasizing too.

“But if we get a guy student, maybe he’ll be good at soccer! Then our school team will be unbeatable!” Make student B started talking.

All the while the other students were talking, Jin was daydreaming in his seat, with an expression on his face that would agonize anyone if they saw it.

“Everyone be quiet!” the teacher said after writing “Domoto Ryo” on the board.

“Domoto?” “Ryo?” “Domoto Ryo…” The students were now discussing about the name.

They all went silent as Ryo walked into the classroom.

“He’s hot!” “Oh my god, he’s looking this way!” “Wahh!! He’s my type!” The girls were talking non-stop now, while the male students were rolling their eyes.

“He’s not that hot looking, Jin is more beautiful than he’ll ever be.” “I know, and look at his face, I bet he thinks he’s all that.” The make students created their own conversation.

“Be quiet!”

“Domoto – kun, can you introduce yourself to the class?” The teacher asked politely.

“I’m Domoto Ryo, I was forced to move here from Osaka.” Ryo said with an egotistic expression on his face.

When Ryo heard the other students talking about someone named “Jin”, he started searching the room for the boy.

“Okay, Domoto – kun, you can sit…” Just when the teacher was searching for a free seat for Ryo, Ryo found Jin.

“I want to sit there.” Ryo pointed at the guy drooling over Jin, sitting at the seat right beside Jin’s.

“But there’s already someone sitting there…” The teacher said uneasily.

“I said, I. AM. SITTING. OVER. THERE.” Ryo’s voice went hard and sharp, scaring the boy sitting beside Jin.

“It’s okay teacher, I suddenly want to change seats.” The student laughed nervously as he moved all his stuff to his new seat, and muttered, “Aww, I wanted to sit beside Jinjin… My beautiful Jin…” He was sobbing in his mind.

“Hmpt!” Ryo dropped his bag on his desk loud enough to wake Jin up from his daydreaming state.

Ryo didn’t know why he demanded to sit beside the moron who pranked him several times yesterday, so he thought his mind must be busted today.

After suffocating from three whole periods, the class was finally released for lunch break.

After three whole periods of class, Ryo came to two conclusions. One was that almost all the male students were drooling over Jin. The other conclusion was that the guy beside him, Jin, loves to sleep. Jin has been sleeping for three whole period strsaight, but none of the teachers woke him up.

When lunch break came, everyone was crowding around the two desks Ryo and Jin were sitting. All the male students were crowding around Jin’s desk, offering him lunches and cakes and drinks. While at Ryo’s table, all the female students were offering him their lunches as well, and walk him home after school.

After greeting the girls for 3 minutes, he found out something about his second conclusion. The teachers never wake Jin up was because they all love Jin so much, that they didn’t want Jin to miss a minute of sleep. All the teachers were perverts, no matter the teacher was male or female.

Then, Ryo got sick of the chattering, and got up.

The whole classroom went silenced as Ryo got up, and stared at him. Everyone except for Jin was paying attention to Ryo, because he was still in the state of half sleeping.

”You! Show me around the school.” Ryo grabbed Jin’s hand and walked out of the room.

Everyone was dumbfounded, and couldn’t talk for 2 whole minutes.

“Did he just…?” “No!! My Jinjin!” “Come back Ryo – chan! I can show you around the school!” The boys and girls were clamouring right now.

Jin on the other hand, just let Ryo dragged him out the classroom.

They’ve been walking around the school in silent for 10 minutes now, and they’ve reached the outside of the school.

Ryo’s hand was still holding onto Jin’s, but only Ryo’s heart was pounding fast and furiously.

“His hand is so warm…” Ryo thought as he kept on dragging Jin everywhere.

As Ryo thought about it, he felt like something went wrong. Jin’s hand was at an abnormal temperature. Then he turned around and looked at Jin.

Jin’s face and lips were as pale as snow, and his breathing was at an abnormal pace.

“Yo… Are you okay? You seem…” Just as Ryo was about to ask Jin, Jin fainted, and collapsed in Ryo’s arms.

Ryo caught Jin just in time, but the sudden weight that dawned on Ryo was too much, so Ryo and Jin slowly fell on the ground.

“Hey! Are you okay? Don’t just sleep…” Ryo panicked as he tried to wake Jin up. When Ryo touched Jin’s forehead, he realized that Jin has a fever, and it was a high one too.

“Arg… If you’re sick, then don’t come to school! What a drag…” Ryo complained as he picked Jin up bridal style. Even though he was complaining, but there was care and worry in his voice.

As Ryo was carrying Jin back to the school, his heart went faster and faster, because Jin’s body heat was rising up.

Suddenly, Jin was breathing so hard, Ryo had to lay Jin on the ground, just in the school corridor.

“What? What happened? What are you doing now?” Ryo was panicking as tried to fan more fresh air around Jin.

Jin was hyperventilating for a while, and then he just stopped breathing completely. Ryo was so scared, but he didn’t know what to do.

Ryo tried to call for help, but no one was near the place they were at.

Ryo hesitated, but then pressed both of his hands onto Jin’s chest, and starting doing CPR.

CPR didn’t work, so Ryo decided to lean down, and place his mouth on Jin’s. At first, he looked at Jin’s full and inviting lips, and hesitated, but he decided saving Jin was the most important thing right now.

When their lips touched, a thousand fireworks went off in Ryo’s mind. The feeling was inexplicably amazing, to Ryo’s surprise. But that didn’t stop Ryo from saving Jin, so he started breathing air in Jin’s mouth.

After 5 minutes, Jin started to breath again, to Ryo’s relief. But that still didn’t solve the problem, because Jin was still hyperventilating.

Jin was still fainted, but he was clutching at his shirt while trying to breath.

“Oh my god… what should I do?” Ryo was panicking non-stop as he repeatedly breathing air into Jin, and pressing onto Jin’s chest. He had a feeling, that if he stopped doing CPR, Jin would die.

* * * * *

On the other side of the building, Kazuya had a bad feeling, but he shook off that uneasiness, and finished his lunch.

He was thinking about yesterday’s incident, and about last night. He didn’t know why he was so mad at Jin. He just didn’t want anyone to touch Jin. He had a huge possessiveness of Jin, but the possessiveness grew so big that Kazuya was scared.

While thinking back at last night, Kazuya’s heart ached. Jin’s sobs were piercing his heart in so many ways, that Kazuya had to see Jin right now. Jin never cried like that before, he was always so happy and carefree…

He wanted to tell Jin that he is sorry, and he’ll never be mad at him ever again.

With that, Kazuya rushed out of his class, and destined to reach where Jin was.

When Kazuya reached Jin’s classroom, he saw “Domoto Ryo” on the board, and the uneasiness grew stronger.

“Where’s Jin?” Kazuya pulled one of Jin’s classmates over, and asked.

“Oh, the new student dragged Jin out the classroom, saying that he wanted Jin to show him around the school.” The student stuttered as he saw the sharp look on Kazuya’s face.

“What!?” Kazuya shouted as he clutched onto the classmate’s collar.

“ It’s not my fault, the new student Domoto just dragged Jin out of the classroom by himself.” The student was close to tears now.

Kazuya let go of the poor guy, and ran out of the room.

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Yes, Jin has asthma xD I just thought it will be more dramatic.

I'll try to update more often, and comments will motivate me more xD *HUGs to anyone who love this fic, and please comment* =)

Fri, 23 May 2008 04:01:06 GMT

After about 20 minutes or so, Jin had observed every eight of the brothers thoroughly.

“They aren’t so bad… I don’t get why Kazuya hates them so much, they’re just a bit… dumb (I find it funny since Jin is the one saying this)…” Jin thought to himself in a corner.

“All they do is complain, and I bet they argue a lot too…” Jin was watching and listening to the eight brothers arguing with each other about the broom being taller than Ryo and Subaru sweeps faster than Hiroki runs. (That I don’t know, I just needed to come up with something, please forgive me-_-)

“This is actually a pretty cute family… except for that short egotistic dude over there…” Jin watched as Ryo was cursing at Jin’s brothers and himself while violently scrubbing the table with a pair of shorts.

“Stupid idiots… They can all die for all I care… Cold face bastard and that lazy ass, sleeping in while all of us are working… Bastards…” Ryo scrubbed the table extra hard while cursing at Jin and Kazuya.

“Hey! Those are my shorts!” When Yu turned around, he saw Ryo scrubbing the dirty table with his favourite pair of shorts, ruining and wearing out the designs of his shorts due to his violent way of cleaning.

Ryo just gave Yu an icy glare, sending a “So what? What are you going to do about it?” message across the room, making Yu squirm and hide behind Subaru.

“How mean!” Jin pouted, as the anger in his heart grew stronger and stronger against this “Ryo”.

“Who is he to call Kazuya a cold face bastard, and me a lazy ass…” Jin’s anger grew stronger and stronger as he remembered the words Ryo cursed out loud.

“ Hmpt! You’re gonna be my target… I bet Kazuya’d be happy too if he knew what I’m going to do to you…” Jin smirked as he formed a plan in his mind.

* * * * *

Ryo’s day wasn’t getting any better; in fact, it might be the worse day of his life yet.

At first, some idiot dropped a pack of Hello Kitty hard candy balls on the ground, and he stepped on them. His back hit the floor, and some of the candy balls went flying and hit him in the head.

Assuming the candy belonged to Hiroki, Ryo simply kicked his ass, and Hiroki landed on the soaped wet floor that Subaru was cleaning.

Then, Ryo got locked in the bathroom with no toilet paper left, and suddenly the Sailor Moon theme song started going on for no reason at all, and Ryo could not stop it as the source of the music was no where to be found.

So Ryo kicked the door open, and managed to break the door into two pieces, and ordered Yu to go out and buy another door to replace the one he broke.

After that, when Ryo got tired and decided to sit on a chair, he realized that he had sat on something sticky and wet. When he tried to get up, he realized that he had sat on 5 pieces of chewed gum, all strawberry flavoured.

With that, Ryo went rampaging in the room, and smashed the chair on the ground, breaking it into thirteen different pieces. Then, he took off his pants and threw it on the ground, and left to change into a clean pair after ordering Tadayoshi to wash his pants, and he didn’t forget to add some cursing while giving out his task.

* * * * *

On the other hand, Jin was having the time of his life.

He watched each of his plans as they fall in to action, and laughed like crazy in the background.

“ Oh my god… that was so much fun… You should have seen his face, Kazuya.” Jin was still giggling as he lay on the couch.

“Don’t have too much fun doing this Jin, or else you’ll-“ Before Kazuya could finish his sentence; he was cut of by Jin.

“I know, I know… I have asthma, not cancer. I can take care of myself.” Jin pouted as he talked.

Kazuya shook his head disapprovingly, and said, “So are you done playing your pranks?”

“Hmm…. Maybe just one more… I wanna finish this with a big one.” Jin lit up a big smile on his face, completely oblivious of how beautiful his smile was.

Dumbfounded for a second, Kazuya’s face turned back to normal and said, “Be careful, Jin.”

Even though Kazuya had lived his whole life with Jin by his side, he still can’t get used to looking at that beautiful face Jin has when he smiles. (I can’t get enough of Jin smiling either >< I love his baka grin. He’s just too cute!)

“I know, I’ll be careful. Since when have I got caught?” Jin said proudly to his brother, and ran off in search for a bucket.

Laughing, he thought, “It’s true, no one has ever caught Jin playing pranks.” Then, Kazuya went back to cleaning. (Yes, in my mind, Jin loves to play pranks on people he loves ^^)

“Bucket, bucket, where are you?” Singing along as he tried to locate a bucket, Jin danced through the whole house. And when he finally found a bucket, he filled it with icy cold water, dumping several ice cubes in the water.

Carrying the heavy bucket with him, Jin climbed on the ladder in which he placed behind the door of Ryo’s new bedroom.

“Hmm… He should show up soon… Didn’t he say he was going to change into a new pair of pants?” Jin wondered out loud, oblivious about the fact that Ryo had changed to another pair of pants minutes ago.

“So you’re the idiot who has been playing those little pranks on me huh?” Ryo stood silently behind Jin.

“Wah? Huh? Ehh!!” Ten seconds later, Jin finally processed Ryo’s presence, and shouted out incoherent words.

Then, Jin slipped on the ladder, and fell.

Just when Jin was expecting the pain on his body, Ryo caught him just in time, but the water bucket went flying up, and eventually landed all the icy water on the both of them.

Okay, now this is what the picture looks like.

Ryo and Jin were on the ground, and Ryo was on top on Jin, with his hands pining down on Jin’s wrists with Jin’s whole back completely sticking to the ground. (Ryo tried to catch Jin before he falls, but he tripped himself in the process of doing that, so both of them landed on the ground.) Their faces were no more than 3 inches apart. The icy cold water that poured on them made this scene more dramatic. Since Jin was wearing a white T-shirt, the features of his upper body because clearer as the water spread along his clothes. This position was truly dangerous.

Being so close to Ryo’s face, Jin’s heart started to pound faster and faster, until Jin felt like his heart was going to pop out any second. His face was as red as an apple, and he couldn’t keep his eyes off of Ryo’s perfectly featured face.

On Ryo’s side, he too, was surprised and dumbfounded. At first he was still angry with Jin for all those pranks, but when he set his eyes on Jin’s face, every ounce of his anger flew out the window. This was the first time he was actually looking and observing Jin’s beautifully carved face. Jin’s apple red blush was extra obvious along his milky white skin, and those long pretty lashes on his eyes were trembling. His watery eyes were big and sparkly, like there was a whole universe of stars trapped in those eyes. And finally, Jin’s lips… His lips were so full and red… and so inviting. With all those in his head, Ryo started to lean down slowly with his brain all wrecked up right now, his common sense was no where to be found.

Just when their lips were only about 2cm apart, Kazuya barged in the room. (Kazuya was worried about Jin, so he decided to check up on Jin.)

“What are you doing!?” Kazuya demanded harshly while running towards the two people.

Kazuya yanked Ryo off of Jin immediately, and wrapped a jacket around Jin’s trembling body.

“Are you okay? Are you hurt?” Kazuya was examining Jin while rubbing Jin’s arms with his hands, trying to direct heat to Jin.

Still dumbfounded about what just happened, Jin finally snapped out of it, and answered his brother, “I’m fine, Kazuya, it’s okay. I’m not hurt.”

Looking at this scene, an uneasy feeling climbed up on Ryo’s back, and clutched onto his heart painfully. This feeling was so suffocating, Ryo was scared. This is the first time Ryo had felt anything like that, it was new to him, and he was scared.

Kazuya helped Jin to get up, and he hid Jin in his embrace when he turned to Ryo.

“I don’t know what happened, but if I ever see you hurting or attempting anything on Jin again, I’ll break you skull, and any part of you that touched him.” With that warning, Kazuya dragged Jin out of Ryo’s new room.

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Ryo and Jin are starting to have some sort of feelings towards each other =)
I don't know if I'm updating the next chapter tomorrow or not, but I'll try to update soon!

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Thu, 22 May 2008 02:38:28 GMT

Title: Fated
Characters: Kanjani8, KAT-TUN, Domoto Koichi, Takizawa Hideaki, and other characters
Pairing: RyoJin(main) and other pairings that might come up.
Genre: comedy?
A.N: I got this idea from this fic i read. The begining might be similar, but i'm changin the whole plot. =)
Summary: What happens when the Domoto family (which consisted of Kanjani8) are forced to live in Tokyo, and befriend the Takizawa family (which consisted of KAT-TUN)?

On a random Sunday morning…

“Wake up!! Wakeee upppp!!!!” Hideaki barged in each one of his six brothers’ rooms, and strangled them until they finally agreed to get out of the bed.

Finally, after approximately 20 minutes, all six of the brothers came down to the kitchen one by one, and each of them were either yawning or rubbing their eyes, but Jin did neither because he was still sleeping while walking.

“Good news!! The Domotos are going to arrive here today! We have to put up our cutest smile on and welcome them in the airport!” Hideaki was getting bouncy just talking about this.

“But it’s still early! It’s only 6 in the morning!” Koki didn’t even try to hide his annoyance as he complained.

Junno didn’t try to make a lame joke about it either, he just sided with his brother on this one.

Kazuya on the other hand, was obviously still having his morning temper, just grunted and slumped himself on one of the chairs.

“Oh come on! It’ll be so much fun! We can help them settle down in their house, help them sort out their luggage, help them paint the house, and everything we can think of! We’ll have so much fun doing it! And they’re really nice people too!” Hideaki was dancing in his own world, again.

Koki rolled his eyes at his idiotic brother, while Kazuya and just grunted with annoyance even louder.

Yuichi and Tatsuya, the only ones who have seemed to be awaked completely, had unhappily accepted their fate, and went upstairs to prepare for a long, torturing day.

“Arg, this is so annoying! When I see these people, I’m definitely kicking their ass when Hideaki’s not looking.” With that said, Koki pulled his brother Junno upstairs to wash up.

While Hideaki was still fantasizing in his own little world, Kazuya decided to give up and accept the fact about this whole Domoto family thing. He accepted it, doesn’t mean he’ll be happy about it.

When Kazuya turned around, he realized that Jin was still sleeping on his shoulder.

Kazuya gently shook Jin’s shoulder and whispered, “Jin… Wake up, we have to go to the airport soon.” Kazuya’s attitude was clearly different than earlier.

Even though Kazuya tried to wake his brother up, but Jin just refused to be awakened.

Soon Kazuya gave up, and picked up his brother and went upstairs. (Yes, Kazuya is strong, and no, Jin’s not fat! –pout- He was really skinny when he was 18!! And he’s not fat right now either ><)

* * * * *

Inside the plane, there were only nine people, and they were all either annoyed or sleeping, except for Koichi. (Please don’t ask why there are only them nine on the plane, ‘cuz I don’t even know myself, and I don’t know why they had to take a plane to get from Osaka to Tokyo, I just like the airplanes)

“We’re here, wake up.” Koichi woke up his brothers one by one, and carried his own share of the luggage and stepped out of the plane.

All eight of the Domoto brothers were half sleeping when they got off the plane, except for Ryo. He was the only one who managed to curse at people so early in the morning, with 50 pounds of luggage on his hands.

The reason they were so sleepy was because they had to leave their house at 4: 30 in the morning to take the plane. Reason for that was because all the other planes were full, and Koichi wanted his brothers to live and settle in Tokyo as soon as possible.

* * * * *

After checking out of the gates in the airport, the Domoto brothers were finally in the entrance of the airport, looking for the Takizawa family.

When Hideaki and Koichi’s eyes met, they dragged their brothers with them as they walked towards each other.

“Yo! Koichi! Long time no see!” Hideaki’ smile was lit up as soon as he woke up that morning, and that smile hasn’t disappear since.

“Long time no see, how’s everything?” Koichi greeted Hideaki with a friendly hug.

“Same old, same old.” Hideaki chuckled, and hugged Koichi back.

“So… are those your brothers? They’ve grown so much since the last time I saw them.” Koichi commented with awe in his voice.

A team of five annoyed boys were standing impatiently behind Hideaki, with Jin sleeping on Kazuya’s back.

“Wow, are you Koki? And you must be Junno!” Koichi indentified each and every one of them following the descriptions Hideaki gave him.

Each of them greeted Koichi with a polite smile, because Koichi was as old as their oldest brother, they paid their respect to their elders as they were taught to ever since they were little.

When Koichi walked in front of Kazuya and Jin, he chuckled, “This must be Jin-Jin. Awww, he was as cute as the last time I saw him, and he got prettier.” (Yes, I think Jin is pretty in some ways.) Koichi was reaching his hand to caress Jin’s face, but Kazuya stepped back, moving his brother, who has been on his back, away from Koichi as well.

“Sorry, but he’s still sleeping. Please don’t take this the wrong way, but I just don’t want Jin to be waked.” Kazuya was protective of his brother, yet being polite at the same time.

Koichi, of course didn’t take it the wrong way, just smiled, “No problem, I don’t want to wake him up from his sleep either.”

At that moment, Ryo saw everything, and rolled his eyes, thinking, “ Hmpt… You were suppose to welcome us with happy smiles and all, and all we got was annoyed looks and an idiot sleeping on the back of another cold face bastard.”

Ryo glared at Kazuya and Jin annoyingly, and cursed at them with a thousand different terms of swear words in his mind.

On the other hand, Hideaki was greeting the Domoto brothers with familiar terms. Apparently, all the Domoto brothers knew Hideaki well, because Hideaki often visited Osaka in between his business trips.

With the two happy brothers walking up front, they completely missed the enmity atmosphere from the back.

The Domoto brothers were glaring at the Takizawa brothers with hate in their eyes, while the Takizawa brothers did the same, only with Jin still sleeping.

* * * * *

It turned out that the Domoto family are going to live only five houses away from the Takizawa’s, and Hideaki and Koichi seemed to be the only ones excited about the future.

After introducing the new house to the Domoto family, Hideaki and Koichi decided to leave their brothers alone in the house to “get to know each other better”. So they went off and shopped for more furniture.

The moment Hideaki and Koichi left, a heavy atmosphere dawned at the house. The Domoto brothers were staring at the Takizawa brothers.

This continued for 3 straight minutes, and their eyes hurt, so they started blinking continuously.

“So…” Yu, the oldest brother broke the silence. “We were told that you people are suppose to help us clean the house and stuff, so why don’t you get started.” Yu smirked at the Takizawa brothers.

The Domoto brothers were all smirking down that the Takizawa brothers, waiting for them to get to work.

“We will help, but shouldn’t you help too? It is your house, not ours. We have no responsible over this house at all. We only agreed to come here because of Hideaki.” Tatsuya refused to back down, and crossed his arms against his chest his he smirked.

They didn’t say anything to each other anymore, and started to clean the house. The Domoto brothers decided to cover the second floor, and let the Takizawa brothers clean the first floor. They agreed to this idea since they didn’t want to look each other anymore than they had to.

As they were getting the tools to clean the house, Kazuya gently placed Jin down on the sofa. He took off his jacket, and placed it on top of Jin.

Jin shifted on the couch, and slept soundlessly again until he found a comfortable position.

When Kazuya was about to leave Jin to get started on sweeping the floor, Ryo came up on him.

“Wake him up.” Ryo’s voice was cold and emotionless.

Kazuya lifted up his left eyebrow, and refused, “No.”

“Everyone has to work, why does he get to sleep in?” Ryo lifted up his chin while talking to Kazuya, and pointed his finger at the sleeping Jin.

“So? I can do his share of cleaning, just leave him alone.” Kazuya talked back protectively.

“No, I want him to clean.” Ryo walked pass Kazuya, and reached his hand to wake Jin up.

When Ryo’s hand almost touched Jin’s face, Kazuya caught his hand swiftly, and yanked it away from Jin.

“LET. ME. GO.” Ryo was grinding his teeth together as he spoke.

Kazuya just continued to clutch onto Ryo’s wrist, adding strength to his grip as the seconds pass.

Just when they were about to fight, a familiar sound disturbed this awkward atmosphere.

“Mmmmm” Jin was waking up, and Kazuya let go of Ryo’s wrist immediately, and ran to the side of the couch where Jin was laying on.

“Hmpt.” Ryo glared at the two of them, and said, “Get him to sweep the floor,” and left.

Kazuya glared at Ryo’s back until he was out of sight.

“Kazuya?” Jin rubbed his eyes with his left hand, while supporting his weight on the couch with his right hand.

“Do you still want to sleep?” Kazuya’s attitude was 120% different from just seconds ago.

“No… I think I’m fine… Where are we?” Jin asked as he yawned.

“We’re at the Domoto’s new house. We’re supposed to help them clean the house and everything. Hideaki went out with their oldest brother Koichi to buy some furniture.” Kazuya answered his brother as he helped him sit up on the couch.

“Hmm….” Clearly still sleepy, Jin was daydreaming for a moment, and then asked again, “Where are the Domoto brothers? I haven’t seen any of them…” Jin turned his head to every direction, trying to find the traces of any strangers.

“They’re cleaning the second floor right now, and we’re cleaning the first floor.” Kazuya smiled at his still half-sleeping brother and added, “We don’t have much of a liking against the Domoto brothers, and they don’t either…”

“Really?” Struck by an idea, Jin was excited all of a sudden.

“Jin… Are you planning something again?” Seeing right through his brother, Kazuya crossed his arms and questioned.

“Just something small… Please Kazuya, please don’t interfere…” Jin begged his younger brother with pleading eyes.

“….” Kazuya pretended to think about it for about 10 seconds, then smiled.

“Fine, but keep it small, they are going to be in our lives for until who knows when.” Kazuya patted his brother on the head gently and smiled, “And be careful, don’t get caught.”

Jin lit up a big smile after getting approval from his brother, and hugged him.

“Thanks, Kazu! I promise I won’t get caught!” Jin then bounced off of Kazuya, and went off in his own.

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Wed, 21 May 2008 04:25:23 GMT

Title: Fated
Characters: Kanjani8, KAT-TUN, Domoto Koichi, Takizawa Hideaki, and other characters
Pairing: I'm thinking of RyoJin?
Genre: comedy?
A.N: I got this idea from this fic i read. The begining might be similar, but i'm changin the whole plot. =)
Summary: What happens when the Domoto family (which consisted of Kanjani8) are forced to live in Tokyo, and befriend the Takizawa family (which consisted of KAT-TUN)?

In small house in Osaka, lived a big family of nine people.

The family members are as follow:

Domoto Koichi (Oldest Brother) (Working status)

Domoto Yu (Second oldest) (University, Year 3)

Domoto Subaru (Third oldest) (University, Year 3)

Domoto Shingo (Fourth oldest, and yea, the rest are in order) (University Year 2)

Domoto Ryuhei (University, Year 1)

Domoto Shota (Grade 12)

Domoto Ryo (Grade 12)

Domoto Tadayoshi (Grade 11)

Domoto Hiroki (Grade 11)

(Yes I changed their age, but I want them to be in school because it’ll work better for the plot xD)

This family of nine had been living peacefully (minus all the fighting and shouting, everything is good) for a long time, until they’re forced to move to Tokyo.

“Eh!!! Why do we have to move!?” Domoto Yu rose out of his chair, and pointed his finger at his older brother.

“I don’t want to move!” Shingo and Shota added, making their opinions clear.

“Me neither! I like living in Osaka!” Ryuhei and Subaru shouted out as well.

“We don’t want to move either… Koichi…(Yes, they call their each other by their first names) do we have to move?” Tadayoshi and Hiroki’s voices were shaking as they questioned their oldest brother.

“No complaining, we’re moving to Tokyo because Tokyo was where our parents were raised, and they wanted us to live in Tokyo before anything of you graduate from University. That was their will, and I have to follow that. And plus, our parent’s wanted us to befriend the Takizawa family, our closest family friend.” Koichi put on a stern face, and left.

While everyone was sulking in their chairs and corners, Ryo, who has been silent throughout this conversation, stood up, and threw the chair across the room and onto the wall, leaving cracks on the wall.

“THE HELL WITH IT!” With that, Ryo stormed out of the room, leaving his brothers behind. He seemed to be the one who was truly unhappy about this plan.

* * * * *

Meanwhile, in a house in Tokyo lived a happy family of seven.

The family members are as follow:

Takizawa Hideaki (Oldest brother) (Working status)

Takizawa Yuichi (Second oldest, and the rest are in order) (University Year 1)

Takizawa Tatsuya (University, Year 1)

Takizawa Jin (Grade 12)

Takizawa Koki (Grade 11)

Takizawa Junnosuke (Grade 11)

Takizawa Kazuya (Grade 11) ß I don’t how this works, please don’t ask me, I just go with the twisted imagination I have. And plus, I didn’t want to make them under 17, so I made all three of them in grade 11-_-.

“Family meeting!!!!!!!!!!!!” Hideaki shouted out as soon as he stepped in the house. Not soon after, six boys all rushed into the living room.

“Okay! I have some wonderful news!” Hideaki sat down as he clapped his hands together two times.

“Mother and Father’s family friends’ are moving to Tokyo! And our parent’s will before they died was for us to befriends with the Domoto family.” Hideaki smiled as he explained.

“Huh? Domoto?” Yuichi was the first to question after handing a nice cup of coffee to his older brother.

“Yes, the Domoto family was our parent’s closest friends. Before our parent’s and the Domoto’s parents died, they wanted us to befriend each other when we grew up. Of course, their oldest brother Koichi and I are close friends already, so it’s all up to you six to befriend the rest of their family.” Hideaki took a sip of coffee.

“How old are they? Have we met them before?” Tatsuya asked calmly with his arms crossed against his chest.

“They’re around your ages, and yes, you have all met them before. I don’t think you will remember though, because Yuichi was only 4, and the rest of you were even younger. But I don’t think it’s gonna be a problem befriending them, they’re a nice family.” Hideaki gave his brothers a reassuring smile, and then he left the living room to take a shower.

After their oldest brother left, the conversation grew louder among the six brothers.

“Do you think they’ll like my jokes?” Junnosuke was about to make another lame joke, but Koki stopped him before he could open his mouth.

“No Junno, I don’t think they’ll like your lame jokes.” Koki clamped his hand on his brother’s mouth and sighed.

“What a bother… I hate it when we’re forced to befriend someone.” Kazuya sighed and gave out an annoyed look on his face.

“Maybe it’ll be fun!” Jin seemed to be the only one who was excited about this.

“Jin, don’t play pranks on them when we meet them…” Tatsuya saw right through his brother’s mind.

Jin rolled his eyes, and said, “Who said I was gonna play a prank on them? I just wanted to have fun…” Jin pouted and crossed his arms in front of his chest.

With that said, the other five brothers sighed and shook their heads.

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Sorry, i haven't been posting any new fics... but there it is!
I've been writing angst fics for such a long time, i want to have a change =)
I know this Chapter is short, but I'm working on the next one right now! I'll probably have the next chapter posted around tomorrow or the day after.

Hope this fic will be loved! Please leave comments to show that you're interested in what'll happen next =)

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 03:20:34 GMT

Titile: To be with you (YamaP's version)
Pairings: Ryo/Jin, PIN
Genre: Angst
Summary: YamaP's thoughts and version of To be with you

Tomo’s version (short)

I knew there was no way that Jin would accept me and leave Ryo. He loves Ryo too much too leave him.

I knew from the bottom of my heart, that Jin loves me too, just not as much as he loves Ryo. It truly pains me, but I decide to swallow the pain and endure everything anyway. I didn’t blame Jin for dragging this relationship for so long, because when you’re in love, everything is weird and crazy. I was able to endure all the pain and suffering to be with you, Jin.

I know that Jin doesn’t want to hurt me, but that cant be helped. It was hard for Jin to make a decision, so I didn’t force him too. Partly because it was hard for Jin, and partly because I already know the answer already, I was just too scared to hear it.

I knew Jin was crying because of me last night, but I couldn’t do or say anything about it. I just pretended to be asleep, until he left.

When I saw Jin wiping the tears away in the bathroom, I wanted to storm in the bathroom and wrap his body in my embrace, but I didn’t. I just stood out there, helpless and powerless.

Suddenly, when I saw Jin tugging in his globe necklace in his sweater, I walked in the bathroom, and my arms wrapped around Jin’s waist before I could think. I just couldn’t look at Jin trying his best not to hurt me, and do nothing about it myself.

I wanted to kiss Jin passionately every time I see him, but I resisted. Because I know if I did that, my privilege to even be around Jin would be lost.

This morning, when we were about to leave the house, Ryo came.

The way he hugged Jin from behind and the way he whispered in Jin’s ears was hurting me in thousands of ways.

Then, when Jin was putting away the towel, Ryo was mouthing the words, “We need to talk.” to me.

I was dumbfounded at first, but my casual expression reappeared on my face when Jin turned over.

* * * * *

Today after rehearsal, I met Ryo in the corridor.

He said that he let everyone out of the dressing room, so only Jin was there.

“Go talk to Jin. We can’t live on forever like this. Someone needs to make a decision.” Ryo bent down his head.

“……” I said nothing in return.

“I just want you to know, YamaP, that no matter whom Jin chooses, you will always be my friend, my very best friend. I never meant to hurt you like this, I am so sorry, but I love Jin.” Ryo said apologetically.

“It’s okay, you don’t’ need to apologize. We both chose this path, chose to endure the pain and love we feel. It is because we love Jin so much that all these pain and suffering we endured would seem like nothing.” I confessed, and I can see the dumbfounded expression on Ryo’s face.

Ryo’s dumbfounded expression dropped into an understanding expression in less than a few seconds.

“Go talk to Jin.” Ryo turned his head side ways to avoid looking at me.

“Why are you doing this? You know Jin might choose me if you let me go alone.” I questioned him.

“I just don’t want our unbalanced relationship to go on. If Jin makes a decision, everything will fall into pieces, and we can move on with our lives. I know there is a possibility that I will lose Jin to you today, but I’m willing to risk it.” With that said, Ryo hurried me to the dressing room, and left.

I came into the dressing room, and Jin was organizing his makeup on his desk. I couldn’t take my eyes off him, and I couldn’t control myself when I pulled his body to me and asked, “Why can’t it be me? I love you too.”

A million thoughts and questions were running through my mind. The images of Ryo and Jin together were flashing back at me as well.

I knew Jin was going to choose Ryo over me, yet I asked the question anyway. I guess I just wanted a solid answer from Jin. Ryo was right, we just can’t go on living with this unbalanced relationship.

My arms tightened around Jin’s waist when he rejected me. I got my answer, and it was what I expected. Still, I can’t help but be disappointed, and agonized.

The words that came out of Jin’s mouth were like knives stabbing in my heart. I knew it would be hard to listen to, but I’d never thought my heart would ache this badly.

I confessed my words of love to Jin, making sure that he knows my position.

Then, I gave in and kissed him. I knew this kiss would end everything, end our unbalanced relationship.

I could feel Jin kissing back, so I did too. The kiss was amazing, passionate and everything great, because it was our first and last real kiss.

Then, I left after saying goodbye. It was really goodbye.

As I walked out the door, I could see Ryo at the end of the hall. I could see the painful look in his eyes, and tears falling down his cheeks.

Smiling, I walked over to Ryo.

I patted him on the shoulder, and said, “Take care of Jin for me. Use all the love you have, and the love I have for him to love him back. If I find out that Jin is unhappy in any way, I will take Jin away from you. So… please, love him with everything you have, don’t disappoint me.” I smiled sadly at Ryo.

“…I will… Trust me, I wont let you down, I will make Jin happy.” Ryo mumbled.

Then, I walked pass Ryo, and out the building. Before I could walk out the door, Ryo yelled behind me.

“YamaP! We’ll still be friends! Best friends!” Ryo shouted out with sincere in his voice, and I nodded, and waved goodbye.

Maybe someday, I thought, I will forget about all these. But until then, I will have to wait and see.

Maybe someday, I will find another person that can make me feel so whole as Jin did, and move on. Until then, Jin, you’ll always be the most important person in my heart. Until then, you’ll always be the person living in my heart, taking up the space. Until I find that other precious one, I’ll love you with all my heart. When I do find that other special one, then maybe, we can truly be…… friends.

End~

Please comment, because i am thinking of should i write a Ryo verison one too. =)

To with you Final Chapter

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 03:16:33 GMT

Title: To be with you (Final chapter)
Pairings: Ryo/Jin, PIN
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin has to make a decision.

Chapter 3

Lying on the bed that Tomo and I have slept in the night before, I wrapped my whole body into a ball with my trembling hands as I cried.

I didn’t know how or when I got back home, the home that Ryo-chan and I bought together. After getting rid of my bag, I slumped onto the bed, and started trembling as I thought about the events that happened today, and about Tomo’s words.

Today’s discussion was a settlement. A settlement of which person I choose. I chose Ryo-chan. I knew the answer to this a long time ago, but my selfishness just wouldn’t let Tomo go. That was why it hurt so much more to break Tomo and mine’s relationship apart. But I had to do it today. The sooner I break us apart, the more painful it would be. I needed Tomo before, desperately. But now that I left Tomo, I need to accept the fact and live on without Tomo by my side. The thought of this made my heart ached.

Everything in my life was falling apart. The moment my lips left Tomo’s, it was the end. I made a decision, and it was final. Even though this would be hard of both Tomo and I, we both had to accept this decision. Now that Tomo’s free of me, he can find someone else to love, and be happy.

I buried my face into the velvet white pillow to suppress my sobbing, but it wasn’t much help. My cries can still be heard, and the agonizing cries that reflected back to my ears was still too loud.

I have never felt so alone. With Tomo gone because of my decision, and Ryo away in Osaka, I have never been so alone in my life. I hated this feeling. This aura around the room was suffocating me, and I kept on crying.

I clutched onto the globe necklace Ryo gave me, hoping that this action will ease my loneliness.

Ryo-chan is all I have left, and I felt somewhat content when I thought of his name. I can live by without Tomo, as long as Ryo-chan is by my side. Maybe some day Tomo can find a true love, and I will be happy for him. But I cannot stand the thought of Ryo-chan leaving me. If Ryo-chan left me, I would die. My mind and body would stop functioning, and I will collapse.

“R-Ryo-chan…” I sobbed out his name, as if calling out his name was an incarnation or spell that will bind Ryo-chan’s eternity with mine.

Now that Tomo is gone, I have a need to clutch onto Ryo-chan even more. I needed him.

If one day, Ryo-chan’s love for me were to disappear, I too, would probably disappear as well, because I live for Ryo-chan. Maybe then my selfishness will get into action again, and clutch onto Ryo-chan, even though he wont love me anymore.

I loosened one of my hands to wrap my body again. With one hand squeezing my body tightly together, another hand on the globe necklace, I sobbed out loud.

It was then when I felt a pair of strong, warm arms wrapping around my fragile and shaking body.

“Jin…” It was Ryo-chan’s voice. I twisted my body and wrapped my shaking arms around his body. I clutched onto Ryo-chan’s warm body desperately. I felt so protected and well that moment. It was as though there was never a reason for my tears. Everything was at ease the moment I see Ryo-chan’s face. Ryo-chan’s existence made me feel well and…whole.

I buried my face completely into Ryo-chan’s embrace. I sobbed my heart out as Ryo-chan’s arms tightened around my body.

His grasp on me was so strong, as if the embrace was a little looser, I would be gone.

“It’s gonna be okay… Everything is going to be fine… I love you, Jin, with all my heart.” Ryo placed a gentle kiss on the top of my head.

His words seem to have an effect on me, as I stopped shaking bit by bit.

After what it seemed forever, my whole body stopped shaking, and my sobs stopped. I lifted my head upward to look at Ryo-chan’s eyes. There was nothing but love and care in those beautiful eyes of his.

“I love you, Jin.” Ryo confessed again as he wiped the tears from the corner of my eyes.

“I love you too, more than I realized.” I lifted my arm up in Ryo-chan’s embrace to touch the globe necklace.

“I thought you were in Osaka?” I asked quietly.

Then, I reached over to caress his necklace too. The gold part of the necklace was shining so bright that it hurt my eyes.

“I came back, for you.”

Ryo-chan grabbed both my hands with one hand, and used his other hand to secure my chin to place. He leaned down to kiss me. Out lips crashed together, and everything fell into place.

The warmth of Ryo-chan’s lips was like marijuana; I kept on lusting on wanting more and more from Ryo-chan. This feeling was addictive. It seemed that Ryo-chan was feeling the same way as well. He slipped his tongue and danced inside my mouth.

We rolled over, and now Ryo-chan was on top of me.

The lust and love in Ryo-chan’s eyes were obvious, his face was crimson red, and he was panting.

“Jin…I can’t live without you. If one day you decide to be with Tomohisa, I wouldn’t blame or hate you. I love you so much, Jin, that it hurts. Every part of my mind and body aches whenever I see you with Tomohisa. Everyday, I live under fear that you might leave me. I love you, Jin. I love you so much.” Ryo-chan confessed his love for me over and over again, which secured my heart with protection.

I lifted my head up to kiss Ryo-chan’s lips briefly, then parted again to speak.

“I love you too, and you only, from now on. Ryo-chan, I wouldn’t blame you either if you were to leave me. I would understand, because of how selfish and ugly I am. But please, if you decide that I am not worthy to be with you anymore one day, tell me. I cannot bare it if you were leave me so abruptly.” My eyes started watering again as my vision became blurry, and the last words of my sentence came out as a sob.

Ryo-chan gently kissed my tears away, and caressed my cheeks.

“I won’t ever leave you, don’t worry about that, because I love you too much to leave you. My body and mind wont let me. Jin, I have waited so long of you to say you love me and me only. Those words made me feel secure and whole. Jin, you are the only person who can make me whole, so please, don’t ever say that you are ugly or selfish. Everyone is selfish and ugly in some ways, but that’s okay. Because I love you, all those selfishness meant nothing to me. Jin, you will always be the most beautiful and pure person in my eyes.” He kissed the corner of my lips as my lips were trembling again from the touch of his lips.

Then, I leaned forward, lusting for Ryo-chan’s lips on mine. Out lips crashed together again, and the tension was as high as ever.

Our hands were clutching onto each other as if the moment we let go of each other will be the end of the world.

When our lips parted, we were both panting hard, with reddish slowly taking over our cheeks.

“Jin, may I?” Ryo-chan wrapped one arm around my waist, and another on my partially undone shirt.

Just when I thought my face couldn’t burn redder at the moment, I was wrong. I could feel my face burning up as I nodded, and leaned in to kiss Ryo’s lips, giving him permission.

Ryo-chan took charge of our kiss again, while he was unbuttoning my shirt. He traced his kisses down my chin to my collarbone.

The moment he touched my collarbone with his lips, my whole body trembled, and I let out an embarrassed moan.

“Mmm…R-Ryo-chan…D-Don’t touch my collarbone…” I winced backward when Ryo purposely kissed my collarbone again.

“Hmm…I love it when you moan under me.” Ryo-chan’s evil smile crept up on his lips, as he nudged my collarbone. Again, I winced, and moaned out loud.

Satisfied with my moan, he continued kissing down my body. When he reached my stomach, he began to unbuckle my pants.

I winced at that moment, but then relaxed immediately. I was ready to give myself to Ryo-chan. More than ready, I wanted him to have me.

As if he can hear what I was thinking, he comforted me. “It’s okay, I won’t hurt you. I want to be with you, Jin. I want you to belong to me.” Ryo-chan kissed my lips to comfort me, and it worked. My tensed body was completely relaxed.

That night, we were finally together, in mind and body. Our silver and gold necklace were entwined, and we were truly happy.

“I love you, Ryo-chan.”

“I love you too, Jin.”

END~

Please comment =) I want to know if anyone likes this fic, and how people think about my fic. Thanks.

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 04:33:52 GMT

Title: To be with you (Chapter 1 and 2)
Pairings: Ryo/Jin, PIN
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin has to make a decision. <-- Suck at concluding, sorry.

Chapter 1

The night was dark, and an undulation of breeze blew into the room through the little opened space of the window.

I was warmly wrapped and protected by the sheets of blankets and his embrace. The steady rhythm of his breathing soothed was soothing. The eyelashes hang beautifully on those closed eyelids of his. His facial skin was so smooth and perfect, he seemed like a professionally craved statue.

I carefully reached out my arm which was around his waist just a second ago, and caressed his cheeks. “Tomo…” I whispered his name out so softly, as if I whispered a little bit louder, the peace and quiet of the room would disappear.

Then, I moved closer into his embrace, and wrapped my arms around his waist again. I needed his protection, needed him desperately. The feeling or thought of losing Yamashita Tomohisa caused my heart to skip a beat. Tomo is the most important thing to me. But so is Ryo.

A tear escaped my eye, and slid slowly down my cheeks. The moment I think of Ryo and Tomo together, my heart would start squeezing and suffocating me.

I felt so helpless, so… ugly inside. It was so wrong of me to linger onto Tomo and Ryo’s love without making a decision. I knew it was hurting the both of them, and at the same time, I’m hurting myself as well. But I couldn’t do anything about it.

I could not choose between the two of them, yet they let me be the way I am now. We had never brought up the topic, because we were all just avoiding it.

I love Ryo. I love him so much that he was almost the entire reason why I was still in JE, almost the entire reason I continue to live.

And Tomo… I could not figure out the emotions or feeling I have for him, but I know it is not far away from either like, or love.

Yes… I love Tomo too, but not the same as I love Ryo. The amount of love I feel for Ryo was too much to put in words, yet for Tomo… I love Tomo enough to want him to be happy. Truly happy. Love him enough that I wanted a claim on him. Then I realized, what a selfish being I am.

But that’s how humans are. Everyone is selfish. We all want what is best for ourselves, and want what will satisfy us.

Still…the bond that trapped the three of us together wouldn’t break so easily. It wouldn’t, and couldn’t.

* * * * *

I couldn’t sleep at all last night. The pang of guilt had kept me awake.

I stepped out of bed carefully, making sure that I wouldn’t wake Tomo up in the process.

Carefully shutting the bathroom door, I let my body slid down the cold floor. My eyes were staring into the countless flakes of the ceiling, and my lips were trembling.

I pressed my palms together trying to stop my trembling, but that didn’t help much.

Slowly, with the help of the door handles, I got up, and walked in front of the sink.

I looked into the mirror. The tear marks were clear on my cheeks.

I lifted my arms up to the mirror, and let my boney fingers crawl against the surface of the mirror.

I had to wash away the evidence of my tears before Tomo wakes up, so I opened the tap, and let the warm water run through my towel, and rubbed it against my face.

Then, my eyes went to the necklace hanging around my neck. It was the one thing that Ryo gave me. The silver and blue globe necklace.

Ryo had the same necklace too, but his necklace was gold and blue. We had the same symbol hanging around our necks. One is gold, and the other is silver. Gold’s over half was always silver, and so is silver’s, but vice versa.

Ryo had has the globe necklace longer than I did. I couldn’t imagine the struggles he went through to give the silver globe necklace to me, because once he gave the necklace out to me, and I accepted it. This necklace symbolized that he had put a claim on me.

The day he handed me the necklace was months after Ryo had has the necklace around his neck already, I remembered the events a little too clear.

* * *

I was sitting on the couch in the KAT-TUN dressing room that day, with Tomo on my side. We were just talking casually, but I laid my head on his shoulders in a friendly way. A save enough distance that did not cross the line of what we had.

Then Ryo came in. The moment of peace was disrupted, and the feeling of awkwardness came flooding in.

Each of us felt uneasy, but Tomo was the first one to speak up.

“Uh… I’ll leave you two to talk.” Just when Tomo was about to get up, Ryo stopped him.

“It’ll just be a second, then I have to go back to Osaka with Kanjani8.” He was talking to Tomo, but his eyes were looking directly at me from the moment he walked in the KAT-TUN dressing room.

Tomo was struggling, I could feel it. He was controlling himself not to explode and run out the room, yet I just stood there. I didn’t do anything about it, I couldn’t.

Then, Ryo reached for his pockets, and got a neatly wrapped box out of his pocket. He handed me the box with trembling hands, eyes shifting between Tomo and I.

I reached out my arms to receive the box, and stared at the box for a moment before my eyes went back to Ryo again.

“Open it.” Ryo said. His fists were clutched against his sides nervously, as his eyes were looking between Tomo and I.

My trembling fingers started moving around the box, and before I knew it, the wrapping paper was on the ground, and my hands were opening the box.

The silver globe necklace was shining through the box as I opened it. It was neatly placed on top of the velvet fabric inside the box.

Both Tomo and Ryo were staring at me now. Both of them were waiting for my next movement.

I hesitated, but I picked up the necklace, and put it around my neck anyways. My eyes never left the ground as I put the necklace around my neck, as I was too weak to look at Tomo’s heart broken expression.

I touched the globe with my fingers, and gave out a weak smile. “Thanks, Ryo. Thank you so much.”

It was then when I heard the cracking of Tomo’s heart.

My acceptance to Ryo’s necklace was a symbol. It that symbolized my love for Ryo, and his love for me.

* * *

None of us said any words of love, yet all three of us understood the situation. The other two were just waiting for me. Everything else was passing by me one by one, yet I just stood there, watching their backs.

I kept on clutching onto the necklace with a strange disturbing emotion attacking my heart, until I heard the noises Tomo was making in the process of getting out of bed.

Swiftly, I wiped my face with the warm towel again, and brushed my teeth.

By the time Tomo came into the bathroom, I was already dressed. Before Tomo had noticed, I tugged in my necklace inside my sweater.

It wasn’t that the necklace was a secret; after all, Tomo was there when Ryo gave it to me. I just tugged it away from the surface and away from Tomo’s sight, because I couldn’t stand the painful expression in Tomo’s eyes whenever he sees the necklace.

What a selfish I am. I accepted Ryo’s love, yet I linger onto Tomo’s gentleness. Sometimes, I just want to kill myself for hurting the two people I care the most.

Suddenly, Tomo put his arms around my waist from the back, and placed his head on my left shoulder.

“G’morning.” I can hear his sleepiness in his morning greetings, but the strength in his arms was as strong as ever.

“Morning, Tomohisa.” I replied him as I waited for his arms around my waist to drop. Finally, after a minute or so, Tomo dropped his arms and gave me a smile. I smiled back, and told him to wash up and meet me in the kitchen for breakfast.

He nodded as I left the bathroom, closing the door behind me.

A hug was the closest behaviour he had, other than sleeping together under the same blanket. Of course, Tomo only had his arms around me whenever we would sleep together in the same bed.

Tomo doesn’t sleep over as often as he used to anymore, especially after I moved in with Ryo. This is the second time Tomo slept over in this house.

Ryo wasn’t here last night due to his work in Osaka. Usually, whenever Ryo would have to work in Tokyo, he would sleep in this house, where I was. Of course, Ryo knows when Tomo would sleep over, and he trusts the both of us. He trusts that we won’t ever do anything that would betray him. He knows it is a risk, and he was wagering my love in this risk and bet. Betting that I will not leave him for Yamashita Tomohisa.

By the time Tomo came downstairs, I had already finished putting the breakfast on the table, and ate half of my toast already.

“Mmm… toast with jam, very creative, Jin.” Tomo mocked me as he sat down on his seat. He picked up his piece of toast, and took a bite.

“You had anything better in mind? We only have 5 minutes to eat, or else we’ll be late for work.” I said as washed my plate.

Tomo just chuckled in defeat, and finished his breakfast. He handed me his plate for to wash, while he finishes to drink his coffee.

“Nice view in the living room.” Tomo commented as I begin to wash his coffee cup. “I like the colour of your wall.” Tomo commented flatly again.

“Thanks, I picked the colour.” I said half-heartedly, reminding myself not to mention Ryo’s share of help on painting the walls.

The untidiness of the Wii and the Dragon Ball Z DVDs can still be seen on the living room floor in front of the television.

We did what friends usually do in sleepovers, DVDs and video games. Nothing out of the ordinary, but we both know that we were keeping a save distance away from each other.

Sometimes I just wonder, what would it be like if I chose Tomohisa instead of Ryo. I would this would never happen, because the feelings I have for Ryo was so strong and special, it cannot be shared with another person. But what if? What if this kind of feeling was towards Tomo?

Maybe the situation would be exactly the same, with Ryo in Tomo’s place, and Tomo in Ryo’s. All in all, I am still hurting myself, Ryo and Tomo. I had to make a decision, because my love cannot be split into two, it just wouldn’t be fair.

My train of thoughts were disturbed as Ryo walked in the door. The moment of awkwardness was washed away as I decided to speak.

“Ryo-chan? I thought you were in Osaka?” I dried the coffee cup with a towel and put the cup away.

“I came back early this morning.” I can see from the corner of my eye that Ryo-chan and Tomo were exchanging morning greetings.

Ryo walked in the kitchen, and wrapped his arms around my waist from behind, just like what Tomo did ten minutes ago.

“Done washing?” Ryo-chan’s husky voice was vibrating through my mind as he spoke, burning every cell in my body. The hot air that came out of his breath was lingering onto my ear as I shivered.

My face was crimson red as I nodded. From the corner of my eye, I could see Tomo turning away his eyes from us. Pangs of guilt washed over me as I walked out of Ryo-chan’s embrace and pretend to do something with my hands.

Ryo-chan gracefully released his embrace over me as I put the towel away.

“All done?” Tomo spoke up while looking at the floor.

“Yup.” I nodded as I looked into Ryo-chan’s eyes.

“Then let’s go, or we’re all gonna be late.” With that said, we left the house went into Ryo-chan’s car.

Chapter 2

Another day passed by already, and I was too afraid to look clearly into Tomo’s eyes. I thought about what Tomo said to me today.

It was during rehearsal break, when there were only Tomo and I in the dressing room. I was organizing the makeup on my desk, and then suddenly, Tomo pulled me to an embrace from behind.

“Jin…” Tomo’s arms around me were shaking as he spoke. “Why can’t it be me? I love you too.” The agonizing voice he spoke with pierced me painfully. I felt so guilty, and lost when Tomo had said those words to me. It hurts me deeply when I know Tomo is in pain.

“Tomohisa…” I began, “The one I love the most is Ryo-chan.” My eyes closed shut as I poured out those sorrowful words. I knew those words would kill Tomo, but I had to say it. I had to make a decision. I cannot linger onto two people at once anymore. It just wasn’t fair.

I can feel Tomo’s grip against me tightened, but I continued anyways. “Tomo, you know I will always love you, but not the same way as I love Ryo-chan. I can’t stay with you like this anymore, it just wouldn’t be fair to you and Ryo-chan.”

A tear went slipping down my cheek as I turned my head down side ways.

Then, Tomo loosened his grip around my waist, and turned my position. We were face to face then. Tomo’s arms never parted from my skin.

I can see the pain in his eyes, yet I couldn’t do anything to stop it. I felt so vulnerable, so…useless.

“Jin…I love you. More than you could ever think so, more than I could ever handle.” Tomo wiped the tear away from my cheek.

I bent my head downward, feeling disgusted at myself. “Please… Don’t be so nice to me, I’m not worth it.” My voice was shaking now, along with my trembling body.

Tomo lifted my chin upward, so that our eyes could meet. “Don’t say anything like you’re not worth it, because you’re worth everything I say to you. I love you Jin, that nothing you do can change that.” Tomo kissed my forehead as I kept on trembling.

“I just needed an answer from you today. I know you feel guilty for hurting me, but that is not your fault. I chose to watch you from behind. As long as you’re happy, I will be, even thought I’m hurting. Maybe someday, I’ll find someone to love, and we’ll both be able to move on. But until then, my love belongs to you, and you only, Akanishi Jin.”

I looked into his soulful eyes, and cried again. Tomo leaned in, and placed his lips against mine. I didn’t resist the kiss, instead I kissed back. We both knew that this kiss symbolized the end of our complicated relationship. After this kiss, we’ll be back to friends, truly friends only.

I wrapped my arms around Tomo’s neck as I leaned my body into his, and Tomo tightened his grip around my waist.

The kiss lasted forever. When we parted, our lips were beginning to be swollen, and we were both out of breath.

A tear slipped out of Tomo’s eyes, as he said “GoodBye.” He kissed my forehead again, and left the room without turning back.

I slumped down on the ground, and wrapped my arms around my legs in a ball of protection.

When my voice found a way out, I realized that I too, was crying.

To be continued...

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Sorry if i made some mistakes, i didnt do a very good job at editing/proof reading.

Broken Bond (FINISHED SEQUEL!)

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 04:34:21 GMT

Title:(The broken bond SEQUEL) <-- cant really think of a name yet

Characters: Jin and P

Pairing: PIN

Genre: Angst

Summary: P’s reaction and thoughts about what Jin had wrote on his diary.

A/N: Again, sorry for the late update. there will be two endings to this sequel =)

It wasn’t long until P arrived Jin’s house. After all, they do live pretty close to each other.

Knowing that Jin’s parents were on vacation, and Reio was on a trip with his schoolmates, P silently unlocked the front door, and let himself in. Trying hard to compress the excitement and anxiousness in his heart, P tried hard not to make a sound. He wanted to surprise Jin with his piece of confession.

Carefully closing the door behind him, P slowly walked up the stairs. When P finally reached the second floor, and he stood in front of Jin’s room’s closed door. Feeling proud of his sneaky actions without getting caught, a smile crept on P’s face.

As P tried to quietly push the door open, he lifted up his foot and set it in Jin’s room without a sound.

Finally. After what it seemed like forever, P was now successfully inside Jin’s room without getting noticed.

After getting over the tension of trying not to wake Jin up, P explored Jin’s room carefully with his eyes.

The room was pitch dark, but P can see the intangible object on the bed. Jin seemed so unreachable from his eyes and distance. From his distance and the surroundings and the lightings, all P could see was a delicate Jin was lying on the bed, buried by the undulations of the blanket. All P could see was a vague image of Jin’s face.

Not wanting to wake Jin up, P walked up to the desk and planned to turn on the table light. As P was walking over to the desk, he had decided that he’ll put Jin in his embrace tonight, and tell him his confession the first thing in the morning.

Click
The first thing that P saw was Jin’s diary on the desk after he flickered the light on. Smiling and mumbling “baka”, P sat on the seat not far away from the desk.

P then picked up Jin’s diary. The cover had cute little bunnies all over, and P could tell that Jin was the one who drew the bunnies. Chuckling at the thought of his innocent friend, he slowly opened up the diary.

It wasn’t like P to read other people’s secrets and diaries, but Jin’s diaries were waving at him, telling him to read it. So he did.

As P begin to read Jin’s diary, he had failed to keep a straight face on for more than 10 seconds.

Today, I was eating my yummy yummy bento for lunch peacefully in my own seat, and stupid Ryo-chan HAD to smack me on the head! I mean, I wasn’t bothering him at all, not even in the morning like I usually do! Maybe because Ryo-chan was jealous? Because I liked eating yummy bentos better than him?? Ahh well… So I kicked his legs and called him a midget and a loser, but that seemed to only anger him-_- So today, I have come to a conclusion. Never steal Ryo-chan’s bento, especially if the person who made the bento was Tat-chan.

Compressing his laugh, P turned to the next page.

I’ll let you in on a secret, diary-chan. Today, I was hiding inside the closet in NewS’ room. I was going to scare P, but all I could see was Ryo-chan. Guess what Ryo-chan did when he thought he was alone in the room?? LOL You’ll never believe what he did! He started to strip until he only has his boxers on, and he was dancing and posing! That’s not the funniest part! He was singing Sailor Moon’s theme song while stripping!!!

I was laughing like crazy inside the closet! Ten minutes after Ryo-chan left, I finally caught my breath. But the worse thing happened! I was locked in the closet! I couldn’t get out!!

But P-chan saved my life. =) From now on I declare P my hero!

At the beginning, P was actually trying to imagine Ryo stripping and singing Sailor Moon. But after the laugh was over, when he read the last sentence, his smile froze in the air, and his fingers tensed.

Tell you what, diary-chan! You remember how I told you before that I wrote my solo song “Care” for somebody, I wrote it for P! I was thinking about P the whole time I was writing the lyrics!

Shhhh, but P should never know about this unless I make sure that P wont laugh at me =P

After ignoring the throb in his heart while P read the few diary entries dated before Jin’s hiatus, he realized something. Jin never took his diary with him to America! The last entry Jin wrote before he left was dated on the day Jin left for America…

Sorry, Diary-chan, but I wont bring you with me to America. I only want to record my life with P around in this diary, so I’m very sorry for abandoning you in my room until I come back =P

A tear escaped from P’s eye as he kept on staring on that particular page.

Flipping over that page, P continued to filter out most of the writings on Jin’s diary. Every diary entry after Jin came back was more painful to read than the next one.

P was trembling now, his tears around his eyes were threatening to fall down his cheeks.

The he was at the last diary entry. The one that Jin wrote tonight. The date was on the top left corner, where the dates always were in Jin’s diary entries.

Pi, I’m so sorry. I did not know this earlier, but I know for sure now, that I love you. I had loved you since so long ago, but was too afraid to admit it. I will always love you, no matter what, but if this will make you uncomfortable, I want you to forget me. Forget me, who had hurt you in inexplicable ways. I learned that I couldn’t be okay alone. I will never be fine without you. Even though I will make you cry and suffer, I still want you to know that, I, Akanishi Jin, loves you with all my heart.

I love you, Yamashita Tomohisa. Please forgive me, just for one moment is enough. Just one moment where I can feel you love me back. I know I’m selfish, but please, just say you love me just once, even if you have to lie. That is all I ask for.

Covering his mouth, P’s other free hand that was holding up he diary tensed, and the diary dropped to the ground.

“Jin…” P never thought that himself was affecting Jin that much. He knew that his relationship with Jin was hanging dangerously by a thread, yet he did nothing to save it.

It was like a train wreck in P’s mind. He clutched his fists on my jeans, as if trying to reach to gain some power that can help him.

Slowly, P let go of his grip against his jeans, and used his free hand to wipe away the tears that was endlessly sliding down his cheeks.

P picked up the fallen diary, and stood up with the support of the table, he slowly walked towards the bed where Jin lies.

The room was still relatively dark even with the light source from the table light, but P can still see where the bed was, so he walked over and sat on the side of the bed without any trouble.

“Jin…I’m so sorry, I don’t know what my feelings for you are right now…But I promise, I’ll try hard to find out the answer.” P slowly reached his hand to caress Jin’s pale cheeks.

Something snapped in P’s mind. Something was wrong.

The moment P’s hand touched Jin’s face, something in P’s heart exploded. P immediately developed this uneasiness that tells him something had gone wrong. Terribly wrong.

Jin’s cheeks and skin was abnormally cold.

P ran as fast as he could towards the light switch, and turned on the main lighting source in Jin’s room.

Eyes were shot wide open when P laid eyes on the sleeping Jin.

“JIN!” P ran into Jin’s bed as fast as he could.

Shocked, lost, poignant. Those were the uneasiness P felt all at once the moment he set eyes on Jin after the light was turned on.

“JIN!!!!!” P was sobbing now. He kept on shaking Jin, but his friend wont open his eyes nor show any signs of life.

* * * * *

P couldn’t remember how he got Jin to the hospital. Everything was a blur. He remembered finding Jin all bloody on the wrists, and went crazy until his body acted over his mind, and carried Jin to the hospital.

P watched the people from JE and Jin’s family coming in and out of Jin’s hospital room, showing signs of regret and sadness.

Sounds of crying and sobs can be heard non-stop, but P never cried after he got Jin to the hospital.

P didn’t think that he deserved to cry. Only people who are worthy have the right to cry. They earned the right to cry over Jin, unlike himself.

He remembered all those memories he shared with Jin. How Jin would steal his clothes and stretch them out so that he wont be able to wear them anymore. How he would still keep the stretched out clothes safely in his closet, not wanting to throw away the clothes that Jin wore. He remembered how he had hated Jin at first, but began to like him, and even become his best friend in less than a split second. He also remembers how Jin would ignore his protest, and name his dog after the two of them, even though their names sound so familiar.

P hates memories, because memories’ only function is to remind what was there once, and what is not existing anymore, reminding you what is now gone.

At first, P didn’t think he would cry, because he didn’t think that he loved Jin enough to cry. He hadn’t cried the past two weeks that Jin had been in the hospital. But as the green line shown in Jin’s life machine started to blur, he realized that he was crying.

Then he realized how much tears were out of his eyes. He realized that he loves Jin. He loves Jin more than he expected. He had loved Jin from the moment he set eyes on him. He loves Jin more than he could handle, more than anything. Now this love is torturing him, because he realized that all too late.

Sobbing, P lifted up his arm to caress Jin’s face.

Jin looked so delicate and fragile, P is afraid that one mistake could lead him to lose Jin forever. If the life machine wasn’t beeping regularly, he’d had no idea that Jin was still alive.

“Jin…” A tear dripped down P’s cheeks, and landed on Jin’s face.

“Jin… You said you love me in the diary. I know that now, and yet you’re lying here, not wanting to wake up and tell me yourself. Jin, wake up and tell me that you love me… I was naïve, and stupid. When I realized that I love you, it was all too late. You’re already lying here, not wanting to wake up. Jin please… if you wake up, I’ll let to hit me or kick me. Even if you said that my room is your room, I’d believe you! Just…wake up…”

P clutched one of his fists on the bed Jin was laying on, and held onto Jin’s hand with the other. P was grasping onto Jin’s hand so tightly, as if he was trying to gain some power from the sleeping boy.

“Jin…we shared so many memories together. I’m so dumb and stupid, I can’t remember all of them. Wake up and remind me, we’ll talk about our memories together…and create new ones. Jin…why can’t you wake up and listen to me… You said you love me, but you didn’t give me a chance for me to answer… In the diary, you said that if I loved you for one moment, you’d be happy, and that was enough for you. But I love you more than that. I’ve loved you for years, and years to come. So please, wake up… Jin, I won’t forget you, ever, no matter what you say. You say that you can’t live without me, but I can’t live without you either. You are the most important person in my life. So please… Jin…wake up…”

P just sat on the chair beside Jin’s bed, frozen in place for as long as he could remember. The only thing that had triggered his sculpture like position was the noise of Jin’s life machine suddenly changing rhythm, beeping fast and furiously, until it had turn into a long, restrained note.

BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP

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Please select Ending A and B, they're underneath =) I have no idea how to link them the way i wanted to.
Sorry for making this so complicated.

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Ending A

P’s mind was still in shock, but his body acted before his mind, and quickly pressed the emergency button beside Jin’s head. Then, when his mind came through the daze, YamaP had shouted as loud as he could, while running down the corridor to find a doctor.

A similar rhythm of beating had acted up in YamaP’s heart as it did on Jin’s life machine just a moment ago. P’s heart was beating furiously fast, and to P’s uneasiness, he didn’t like that fast rhythm one bit.

P soullessly sat on one of the benches outside of the surgery room that Jin had been pushed into. There was no expression on P’s face whatsoever, but his mind was going through a wreck. He couldn’t believe that one of those typical crying drama scenes would happen to him. Sure he had acted into those crying dramas before, but he would have never wanted to actually experience in one.

He didn’t want to lose Jin. Not now, not yet. He had a million things that he wanted to tell Jin. He still wants to apologize, confess, and laugh and joke with the boy. Without Jin, his life would be meaningless. Jin is the main source of happiness in Yamashita Tomohisa’s life. Jin was the whole point of his life. If Jin were gone, he’d be a mindless and soulless corpse.

There he sat, on the bench alone and helpless. Everything else that was running around him seemed to be blurred out except for him. It was as though that nothing else mattered at the moment.

He was helpless, lost, and hopeless.

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He couldn’t remember how he had walked into Jin’s hospital room after hearing the devastating message from the doctor.

“I’m very sorry, this is the best I could do. Please see the patient one last time. I’m deeply sorry for your lost.”

P slowly sat down on the chair that he had been sitting on for the past 2 weeks. But things changed. In the past 2 weeks that P sat on the very same chair, there was hope. There was actually hope that Jin will live through this nightmare, and actually wake up.

But this time, all hope was lost.

P reached his hand out, and grabbed onto Jin’s hand.

Slowly, Jin opened his eyes, and P smiled at him with his best effort.

Jin seemed to have the knowledge of what was going on, as he weakly smiled back to P.
P seemed to have also known that Jin was aware of his situation, and leaned down to placed a tender kiss on Jin’s lips.

Before Jin could say anything, P had cut off Jin’s shocked expression with his confession.

“I love you Jin.” P put every ounce of his emotion into every single word that came out of his mouth.

After watching the shocked and unbelieving gaze that Jin had shown, P continued.

“I’m not saying I love you because of the state you are in now. I’m saying I love you because I mean it. I love you, Jin. I was just too dumb to realize it. And now… there’s no way of going back…” A tear slipped through P’s control, and ran down his cheeks.

“I love you too.” Jin said in an almost inaudible voice, understanding and believing in P’s confession.

Slowly, Jin sat up from his lying position with P’s help, and lied on P’s chest like in a hug.

There was too much to be said, but too little time. Jin’s time was running out, and both of them knew it.

Tears were flowing down from both of the boy’s eyes.

And Jin started singing “Care”. The song that he had written for P.

This song held too much of what Jin wanted to say, and P sang along with him, because he too, has known this song well.

Between becoming friendly and lies
Burdened with clumsy love
In the days I was becoming sick of
Being chased by time
I felt a little freedom

After a number of years have passed
This will become only a memory so
Those partly forgotten memories and now
I tried to put them together

Jin’s voice faded away, and his head fell down of P’s shoulder. Even though Jin’s voice stopped, P’s didn’t. He kept on singing and singing, while adding strength onto the grasp of his hands with Jin’s.

Because I'm carrying too many precious things
Its become difficult to walk today

“Farewell…P…I love you.” That was the last sentence Jin had said before the life machine’s sound went flat, and his hand had dropped out of P’s.

Two more rolls of tears had fallen out of P’s eyes, but he kept on singing. He wrapped his arms more tightly around Jin’s fragile body, and kept on singing.

The flat note produced by the life machine was cutting through the melody of their song, reminding P of Jin’s death. But he kept on singing.

*At all times we, and surely everyone
Are dragging with us many sadnesses and weaknesses
Even if we begin to fall
In the strength to take a step forward
The smiles for all the times we cried will surely be waiting there

At all times we, and surely everyone
Are dragging with us many sadnesses and weaknesses
Even if we begin to fall
In the strength to take a step forward
The smiles for all the times we cried will surely be waiting there

He sang the chorus part over and over again, as if stopping the song would let Jin disappear in front of his eyes.

P’s grasp on Jin went tighter and tighter, and his poignant sobbs went louder and louder, filling the empty room with heart-breaking emotions.

The forlorn look had never left his face. Nor did the miserable atmosphere left the room.

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Finally, P decided to end the song. He picked up Jin’s body, and carried him out the hospital.

P walked along the shoreline, and reached to the area where it was the centre of the ocean.

Their ocean.

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“Ne , ne! PPPPPPPPPPP!!!!” Jin started pouting and screaming when P ignored him.

“What?” The irritating emotion can be heard in the question.

“When I die, I want to be buried in the sea. In this sea.” Jin said with a grin on his face, still staring at the beautiful sight of the ocean.

“And YOU will too, right? Right? Right?” As if he was a kid wanting to confirm a promise, Jin had asked his best friend the same question three times.

“Baka, why do I have to be buried in the same place as you?? And why this ocean?” P chuckled as he patted Jin’s head.

Jin pouted, and dodged his head from YamaP’s hand. “BECAUSE! I’d be too lonely if I was wandering in the sea all alone! And you don’t want me to be lonely, because you love me too much to let me be lonely! And this is OUR ocean! Because we’ve shared too many memories in the ocean!” Jin said with a proud expression on his face.

P then slapped Jin on the head and laughed. He didn’t’ comment on Jin’s reply.

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Yamashita chuckled at the thought. He bent his head down a bit to look at the lifeless Jin.

“Did you love me since then?” P wondered out loud with regret in his voice.

While supporting Jin with one arm, P took out a knife with his other hand from his pocket.

He had carved half a heart onto his left arm, and the other half part of the heart onto Jin’s left arm. Both carved in the same position. P pressed his still bloody scar with Jin’s. Although the life had ran out of Jin already, there was still blood in Jin’s freshly cut wound.

With that done, P had made a “blood bond” with Jin.

Leaning down, P pressed his lips against Jin’s cold lips, and walked into the ocean with Jin in his embrace.

Slowly, the undulations of the ocean had eaten away the two people, and the two idols had faded away into the ocean.

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One year later…

At the Shochikubai household and the Kurosaki household, two babies were born.

They were born at the same time, with the same scar on their delicate little left arms.

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Ending B

P’s mind was still in shock, but his body acted before his mind, and quickly pressed the emergency button beside Jin’s head. Then, when his mind came through the daze, YamaP had shouted as loud as he could, while running down the corridor to find a doctor.

A similar rhythm of beating had acted up in YamaP’s heart as it did on Jin’s life machine just a moment ago. P’s heart was beating furiously fast, and to P’s uneasiness, he didn’t like that fast rhythm one bit.

P soullessly sat on one of the benches outside of the surgery room that Jin had been pushed into. There was no expression on P’s face whatsoever, but his mind was going through a wreck. He couldn’t believe that one of those typical crying drama scenes would happen to him. Sure he had acted into those crying dramas before, but he would have never wanted to actually experience in one.

He didn’t want to lose Jin. Not now, not yet. He had a million things that he wanted to tell Jin. He still wants to apologize, confess, and laugh and joke with the boy. Without Jin, his life would be meaningless. Jin is the main source of happiness in Yamashita Tomohisa’s life. Jin was the whole point of his life. If Jin were gone, he’d be a mindless and soulless corpse.

There he sat, on the bench alone and helpless. Everything else that was running around him seemed to be blurred out except for him. It was as though that nothing else mattered at the moment.

He was helpless, lost, and hopeless.

Two hours had passed, and P waited impatiently outside the surgery room. During those two hours, P had contacted Jin’s family and the other JE boys with his cell.

Almost everyone was waiting with him now, hoping that Jin can survive and finally wake up.

The tense atmosphere around the area got more intense as the doctor walked out of the surgery room, taking off his bloody glove.

P was the first one to race up to the doctor, and grabbed the doctor’s sleeves.

“How’s Jin?” Was the first question that popped out. And that was the only thing that mattered to everyone.

The doctor put up a tired grin on his face, and said. “ Congratulations, the patient survived. Fortunately, this accident had caused the patient to wake up from his coma. His senses were triggered, and his mind and body will be functioning again. Soon, he’ll be awake, and we’ll have to see if everything’s alright after he wakes up.” With that said, the tense atmosphere was instantly replaced by the joyful and relief emotion.

After cheering for a while and patting each other on the backs, the JE boys had calmed down from the exciting news.

Ryo was the first one to shoo everyone out the hospital, giving YamaP and Jin’s family a chance to be alone with Jin.

Jin’s family and P smiled gracefully at Ryo’s actions and idea, and thanked him after everyone was gone.

Jin’s parents, and brother entered Jin’s room after P.

Jin’s father and brother were sitting on the couches opposite of Jin’s bed (where Jin was lying on right now), and P and Jin’s mother was sitting on the plastic chairs on both sides of the bed.

Both YamaP and Jin’s mom had their hands around Jin’s.

The first one to notice the movement of Jin’s hand was P.

P stood up abruptly, and Jin’s mom followed. Jin’s father and brother raced up to surround Jin’s bed, and P pressed the emergency button for the second time in the same day. The anxious and hopeful emotion never left P’s eyes as he lingered on the idea of Jin finally waking up.

Not long after, a doctor and two nurses came, and shooed everyone out the room.

They came out around 30 minutes, with a bittersweet expression on the doctor’s face.

That bittersweet expression of the doctor had agitated the four people that were anxiously waiting for the doctor’s respond.

“Good news and bad news.” The Doctor said while holding onto the charts that recorded Jin’s health issues and other facts.

“Good news is that Akanishi-san will be perfectly healthy after a few days. His body will be functioning normally, and there won’t be any abrupt issues that’ll endanger his life.”

The Akanishi family and P was almost totally relieved hearing the news, but they can’t forget “the bad news”.

“What’s the bad news, doctor?” Reio asked with concern for his brother.

The doctor gave out an intangible look to the four people in front of him, and said with caution, “The bad news is that… unfortunately, Akanishi-san seemed to have lost all his memories. His ability to read, write, eat and daily abilities remained, but he seemed to have forgotten the people and relationships in his life.”

The doctor carefully examined the expressions and changes that was going on on the four people in front of him. Then he continued.

“This seems to be a selective memory lost. Meaning that the patient had chose to forget whatever incident that happened, and live his life without wanting to remembering the past. It’ll be best not to let him remember his past, because it’ll not be the best option for the patient both physically and mentally.”

The Akanishi family had stayed behind to ask questions about their son/brother, while P went into the room silently.

P didn’t know what to say, or how to respond to the shocking news.

He opened the door, and walked in the room silently. From the door to Jin’s bed was only around 7 steps, and all this time P was walking in front of Jin, Jin was staring at P as if he was an alien or something.

P smiled at Jin the moment he sat down on the chair beside Jin’s bed.

Jin smiled back as a sign of politeness, and carefully asked, “Umm, I’m sorry, but do I know you?”

P knew that question would pop up sooner or later, but he never expected for his heart to sting and burn that much.

Clutching onto his jeans as support, P answered, “I’m Yamashita Tomohisa. My nickname is YamaP, but you used to call me P.”

P continued after a pause, “You’re the most important person in my life.”

“P?” Jin asked with an innocent face as he tilted his head.

“Yes, you used to call me P.” P smiled back as he let go of his clutching hand.

He seemed to have relaxed a bit after Jin had called him “P” again. He had forgotten how great Jin’s voice sounded. He had almost forgotten how peaceful and at ease at Jin’s presence.

“I’m the most important person in your life?” Jin continued his questions.

“Yes, you are. Because I love you.” P didn’t hesitate when he confessed.

Jin was shocked for a moment, but he smile back.

“But I don’t remember you. I’ve lost all my memories of you. How can you still be sure that I’ll be the same as before? Same as the person that you say you love?” Jin said with his head bent down, not realizing the hint of sadness in his voice.

“I’ll always love you. No matter what you become of. Before, I let you slip away from me, but this time, I won’t ever let you leave my side again.” P smiled as he lifted Jin’s face back up again. Both their eyes were staring at each other’s now.

Jin’s blush was extra obvious on his pale face, and P loved it.

P leaned in and placed a soft kiss on Jin’s forehead. He didn’t want to push Jin into anything; he just wanted to let Jin know that he loves him.

Jin’s blush got deeper and deeper, turning into a crimson red that had attracted P to kiss his cheeks.

“Don’t worry, you don’t have to rush. I don’t want you to remember anything if it means for you to try so hard. I’m happy the way we are now. I’m happy as long as you’re alive.” P backed away from Jin and sat back down on his plastic chair, but his hand reached out to hold onto Jin’s.

Jin was nervous. He didn’t know how to respond. But all he knew was that there was an irregular emotion that stirred up inside of him the moment this man came in the room. And that emotion got stronger and more intense when that man had kissed him. Jin didn’t know what the emotion was, but his heart was beating so fast, that he was sure the man sitting across from him could hear it.

This “P” who claimed that he loves him was special. Jin had realized it the moment he had walked into the room. He knew at least that much. P was special to him.

P went home that day, and really ate for the first time in 2 weeks. For the past 2 weeks, all P ever does was work and hospital. Those were his two priorities in his life for the past two weeks. He never really ate or slept during the two weeks, and his body was getting thinner and less health each day.

After eating until he was satisfied, P went up to his room.

He took out Jin’s diary from his drawer, and stared at the book for a long time.

He was thinking about a lot of things after his first conversation with Jin ever since he woke up.

Maybe it was meant to be. Maybe Jin will be better off without his past memories. After all, the purpose of memories was only to remind what was there once, and what is not existing anymore, reminding you what is now gone.

Maybe the bond they had before had cracked, but P decided to start a new bond with Jin. This time, the bond will be clearer. It won’t be as vague as the last bond they had before. Uncertain of what their relationships were.

This time, P had decided to create a new bond with Jin. And with that decided, he took out his a lighter, and started burning Jin’s diary.

P wanted a new start. A start where he will be letting Jin live his best time of his life.

END~

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The Broken Bond Sequel

Thu, 14 Feb 2008 00:05:08 GMT

Title:(The broken bond SEQUEL) <-- cant really think of a name yet

Characters: Jin and P

Pairing: PIN

Genre: Angst

Summary: Mainly P central. P’s reaction and thoughts about what Jin had wrote on his diary.

A/N: Sorry for the very late update-_- I was struggling whether or not to write a sequel to this, but since many of you wanted a sequel….there it is!! Again sorry for the late update, I’ve been very lazy…

“P, will you repent if I die because of you?”

The question had been swimming in P’s head the whole day. Jin’s question had taken over P’s mind, causing P to be at a lost for everything that he does.

Thinking back to this morning, P’s mind was once again filled with confusion and remorse.

“P, will you repent if I die because of you?” Jin asked casually, but the status they were in converted the whole sentence to be serious.

Jin’s head was tilted down the whole time, playing with his phone. P hesitated. He couldn’t answer that question without thinking about it. If Jin asked that question 8 months ago, before he had ever been to America at all, P could have answered that question without hesitating. But now…he just couldn’t.

They were both in Jin’s bedroom, with Jin half sitting and half lying on his bed, and P sitting on a chair not far away from the bed.

“I don’t know…” That was the best answer P could give out without lying. After the answer was sent across the empty room to Jin, P noticed the pain that flashed in Jin’s eyes.

P wanted to jump onto the bed and pull Jin in his embrace, but he didn’t. He just sat there, helplessly watching his friend suffer from what he had said. He wanted to answer, “Yes! Of course I would be! You are the most important person to me!”, but he didn’t. Some parts of his brain and body restrained him from doing that. He could imagine how powerless that answer would be. He could imagine how useless and fragile that answer would be.

Trying to escape the awkward situation, P just made an excuse and left. “We’re going to be late for work, let’s go.”

With that said, both of them knew better not to talk about that topic anymore, and left. Jin’s head was down the whole ten minutes in P’s car until they got to the JE building.

The two of them walked silently, and split to the parts of the building that they were required to go.

But what P missed was the tear that ran across Jin’s face, and the clutching motion Jin did with his fist against his heart and shirt.

It was late at night, and he was in his room, still in his clothes that he wore to work that day. All the time P was thinking about that morning’s incident, an undefined feeling had climbed up on his back, clutching his heart.

P understands very well that the relationship between Jin and himself is really in an ambiguous right now, but he cant help but be worried and hurt over what Jin had asked him.

He knows that their relationship has a crack on it, and he is the person that refuses to fix that crack. He understands how fragile his relationship with Jin was. So fragile that one little motion or undulation could break them apart.

No matter what kind of relationship two people hold, one person has to be the initiative, and open the door to the other’s heart. If no one takes the initiate open the door to the other person’s heart, nothing will become of the relationship.

P understands very well of that, but he restrained himself from being the one opening Jin’s door. His reasons behind that are even intangible to himself. He could not figure out what his heart wants or needs. He can’t keep his thoughts clear.

Ever since Jin left for America, his mind and heart started to go berserk. He felt betrayed, abandoned, and lost. He doesn’t know how to face Jin anymore. He can’t just be around Jin like nothing has happened after Jin came back. He just couldn’t.

So when Jin came back, P kept distance. That was the only way and the best way that P could think of before getting his thoughts clear again. Deep down, P was the one restraining from fixing their bond. He was mad at Jin for leaving him behind. He felt betrayed, and his heart had ached horribly. But at the same time, he wanted to pull Jin into his embrace and tell him that he’ll always be with him.

Still thinking about Jin’s question, P got worried. Something in his heart tells him he needs to see Jin right now, and actually be the initiative and open the door to Jin’s heart.

Although things are still messy in his mind right now, P decided that Jin is the most important person is his heart. Forget about the fuss in his mind, who cares? Jin is the most important on his list right now, and he will be forever! In which way? It doesn’t matter right now; he just needed to get that message across to Jin. P’s mind had taken a direction already, and after the first direction his heart turned, everything will be easier to figure out.

Rushing out his room and house, P practically jumped into his car and started speeding on the road to Jin’s house. All the way to Jin’s house, P kept on thinking about the happiness that’s going to be on Jin’s face when he tells him, and he couldn’t help but smile to that image.

Forgotten LAST CHAPTER!

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 20:12:56 GMT

Title: Forgotten FINAL CHAPTER
Characters: Jin, YamaPi, Kame
Pairing: PIN (main) akame (?)
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin was forced to break up with YamaPi, but the reason remains a mystery, only Jin and Kame knows the reason.

As the days passed, everything went by like a blur to YamaPi. He didn’t know what to do anymore. Every single day, he tries hard to look for Jin. He tries hard, but failed. Sometimes, he doesn’t even know if he was going to continue his life like this or not. Waking up, looking for Jin, questioning Kamenashi, and sleep. The cycle goes on forever, in a never-ending loop.

YamaPi is scared. He is scared that Jin would never come back to him. He’s scared that he’ll have to live a life without Jin. Most of all…he’s scared that Jin will fade away from his memories. Without Jin around him, YamaPi is scared that he will forget how Jin looks like, how his voice sounds like… and how his feelings for Jin felt like.

Three months had passed, and YamaPi’s “cycle” still continues. Nothing had changed, except maybe the fact that he would look at Jin’s pictures more often as the number of nights increase. Kamenashi still refuse to tell YamaPi about Jin’s “secret”, but YamaPi never gave up on questioning him.

One night, when YamaPi and Ryo went out drinking, he met a person, he’s one of the paparazzi. YamaPi hates paparazzi. All celebrities hated them. But this paparazzi said one thing that made YamaPi stop in his tracks, and listen.

Apparently, he was drunk and laughing with his friends, spilling all the “secrets” out loud, unaware of YamaPi and Ryo’s presence.

“Still remember Akanishi Jin?” The man was wearing a bight green scarf around his neck, and he was laughing, and asking his friends after taking another sip from his beer. YamaPi and Ryo stopped and looked at him.

Ryo tried to pull YamaPi away from hearing anymore stuff about Jin, but YamaPI just wouldn’t budge.

“Remember around more than half a year ago, he went to America to “study”?” The man emphasized the word study, letting his fellow friends understand that he knows what Jin’s secret was, so everyone was curious, including YamaPi and Ryo.

“You know how Akanishi and Yamashita are like what, the best of friends?” The man slurred a bit due to his drunkenness, but still manage to continue. While on the other side, when YamaPi heard his name being mentioned, gripped his fists on the side.

“Ha…friends my ass! They are freakin lovers! LOVERS!” The man shouted out the last part, and then laughed hysterically. YamaPI and Ryo flinched, but kept themselves calm enough to listen to the rest of this man’s story.

“I took a picture of them kissing, and decided to blackmail one of them with it. At first, I was going directly to Johnny-san, but Akanishi Jin got in the way.” The man made a face, but kept on going. “Somehow, he found out about it, and he told me to back off.” Then the man laughed.

“Back off? The kid actually told me to back off! With that golden information, how could I just give it up? So I made a deal with him.” One of the man’s friends opened his mouth and asked. “What deal?”

The man smirked and said proudly, playing with his bright green scarf. “I told him that this picture would ruin his beloved boyfriend Yamashita, so he had to take this deal. So he did. And what is the deal I offered him? A trade.” The man took another sip of his beer and continued on.

It took every single ounce of strength for YamaPi to restrain himself from beating the hell out of the man, and continue listening.

“So I told him. If he can bring me a piece of information that is worth more than that picture, I will give him back the picture. So a few days later, he called me, said that he has the piece of news that can easily cover up this picture.” The man was so excited about showing off this secret; he was oblivious to his surroundings. YamaPi and Ryo were on the sides eavesdropping, and trembling at the thought of what Jin went through.

“What information was that?” another on of his friends asked him, not hiding his curiosity.

“Ha…that idiot! He was willing go sacrifice his career for his so called love. He was willing to go to America just to protect his boyfriend! But! That was more of moneymaking piece of information than that picture, so I accepted. And that was how I got my raise and stuff!” Laughing and being proud at himself, a YamaPi suddenly ran in and punched him in the face.

“YOU BASTARD!” YamaPi kicked him in the stomach, and when he was about the hit the man with a beer bottle, Ryo came in and stopped him.

“Let’s go, this piece of crap isn’t worth you going to jail for.” Ryo kicked the man on the side before pulling YamaPi out of the scene.

YamaPi and Ryo went to Jin’s apartment after that. Both of them sat on Jin’s bed, both not saying anything.

“It’s my fault…” YamaPi broke the silence with a tear rolling along his cheeks. Ryo grabbed onto YamaPi’s hands as if giving him strength. “no it’s not…Jin was only trying to protect you. If you blame yourself like this, all of his hard work will go to waste.”

That night, Yamapi cried to sleep, with Ryo beside him. But what Ryo didn’t know was, YamaPi sneaked out of Jin’s apartment, and went to the park where him and Jin met.

“Jin…I’m sorry…I miss you so much, where are you?” YamaPI sobbed out the words, and kneeled on the floor under the dark sky.

Then, YamaPi remembered the letter left behind after Jin was kidnapped.

Jin is save with me. If you want him to live a better life, then please, so not look for him.

For some reason, YamaPi was starting to believe the letter. Maybe Jin will have a better life without all of this. Maybe Jin will be better off without… him.

YamaPi smiled at the starless sky, as if he was facing Jin. “Jin…maybe you are better off without me…But I’m not better off without you…I love you Jin.”

The next morning, the news headline was all covering the same story.

Yamashita Tomohisa, Dead. Commited suicide around 2 in the morning.

Kamenashi handed the check to the man in front of him and said. “Thanks for all the hard work, but we’ll never meet again.”

The man with the bright green scarf gracefully received the check and smirked. “Whatever you say, Kamenashi-san.”

Both man walked away from each other in the opposite direction, and fading into the alley.

Kame walked up to an apartment, and opened his door.

“I’m home!” Kame yelled out, and closed his door behind him. A small figure ran into his embrace, and said “Welcome home!”

Kame smiled at his “lover”, and said. “I love you. Jin.”

Jin bent down his head to hide his blush, and muttered “I love you” anyways.

Kame smiled sweetly and lifted up Jin’s chin. And kissed him on the forehead.

“Don’t jump around too much, you’re still sick remember?” Kame slide his arms around Jin’s waist, and started stroking Jin’s smooth hair.

Jin, completely buried into Kame’s chest mumbled. “Mou…I’m almost completely healed… I just lost all my memories, and my head hurts from time to time…other than that, I’m okay!……” The last sentence was almost inaudible, but it was clear as a bell to Kame’s ears.

“Hmm…I can’t hear the last sentence…say it again.” Kame teased his lover, and lifted Jin’s chin up from his embrace.

The blush on Jin’s face deepened, and said. “As long as I’m with Kame, I’m okay with no memories of my past.” Then Jin ran away to his bedroom, leaving Kame at the door…smirking.

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im so sorry for such a late update...and this rougly editted....so im really sorry.

I know this ending is weird, but that's how my mind worked>< so, i hope you enjoy this fic =)

And MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Our broken bond (PIN)

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 03:27:52 GMT

Title: Our broken bond
Pairings: PIN
Characters: Jin and YamaPi
Genre: angst
Summary: Things changes after Jin is gone for america. <- I suck at summerizing, so please just read it? =D

I was being selfish. I am aware of that. I had the perfect life and friends that people could only dream of, but I wanted something more. I wanted to experience life in another country, and I did.

Jin’s tears silently flow out his red eyes, emerging with his blood as he continues to write in his diary.

* * * * *

8 months ago…

It was decided, Jin was going to leave everything behind and go onboard America to study. His decision had shocked and hurt every one of his beloved friends and family. Of course, some of his friends had decided to treasure and enjoy every moment that they have left before Jin leaves them for until who-know-when, but some decided to sulk and focus on their anger of the fact that Jin was being selfish.

Then there was Yamashita Tomohisa. Their relationship was unclear to every one. Some state them as best friends, some state them as lovers, but the main characters did not answered to those statements. They never talked about this either, because that will just ruin everything about their relationship. They have feelings that were more than best friends should have, but not enough as to say lovers, because if they do, none of the two could guarantee that they will be happy. None of them had said “love” to each other. They were afraid to, and horrified at what would happen if they had said “love” to one another. Sure they said “like” to each other, but “love” was a totally different thing.

They understand their relationship well, so they were smart enough not to disturb that special bond that they share by heart. That was enough to them… at least until Jin decided to be selfish…to be selfish once in a long while. Jin was never selfish in his life, so he wanted to at least feel the selfishness once.

Yamashita never talked to Jin after he chose to accept the fact that Jin is really leaving…for good. He had decided to avoid Jin, and Jin fully understands why, so he didn’t try to put Yamashita in an awkward position either.

Finally, only hours before Jin’s flight to America, Tomohisa decided to talk to Jin.

They met in Yamashita’s apartment. Yamashita was there first, with Jin coming not long after their decided time.

They sat down causally in the living room, face to face.

There was an uncomfortable silence between them, one they had never shared before. Then, Yamashita began to talk.

“So… you’re leaving in a few hours…” Yamashita said in a monotonous voice, completely blocking Jin from reading his emotions.

“Y-yes…” Jin was a bit stunned at his lost of not being able to read his best friend’s mind.

They went into an awkward silent again, only this time was more to Jin’s uneasiness.

Suddenly, a tear came out of Yamashita’s watery eyes. To Jin’s uneasiness, he lifted his arm to wipe away that tear.

“I’m sorry… I’m being selfish.” Jin said in an indefinable tone. “But I wanted to at least be selfish once in my life. I want to experience stuff on my own, wanting to know that I will be okay on my own.” Jin leaned in and gave Yamashita a kiss on the forehead.

The kiss lasted a few seconds longer than the previous kisses they had before. The kisses they had before were calm and playful, but not too over as to disturb their relationship. But this kiss had just disturbed their peaceful relationship. This kiss felt dead to Yamashita and Jin, it also felt weird in an inexplicable way, but Jin leaned in again and hugged his friend anyways.

“Pi… can you promise we’ll be the same after I come back?” The fear in Jin’s voice was obvious, and the tear that was hanging around his watery eye secured that emotion. He trembled under Pi’s hug.

A strong and awkward silence came after, but YamaPi finally opened his mouth, and hesitated to reply.

“I can’t promise you that. I’m sorry.” YamaPi slid down his arms where they were previously holding the trembling Jin, and looked away with tears on his face.

The tear that was dangling around Jin’s eyes finally escaped Jin’s grasp, and Jin trembled even more.

The two didn’t say anything more. They just stayed in that position until Jin had to go. They thought that was the most reasonable and safe thing to do so.

During the time Jin was in America, YamaPi did not phoned or contact him at all.

* * * * *

When Jin was finally came back after 6 months in America, things didn’t turn out great for him. Sure, some people were happy about his return, but most of his friends were still mad at him for leaving them behind.

He can only stand in his group and watch them have inside jokes and conversations where he was no longer included or able to understand. He can just smile awkwardly and feel the stab in his heart attacking him.

But the most dreadful thing happened to Jin was Yamashita Tomohisa’s feelings towards him. They no long share the bond and chemistry that they had not too long ago. Things were awkward for them. Sure they still joke around and were being playful to each other, but every action were only to Jin’s initiate first, with Pi awkwardly following after. Every thing between them was done after hesitation now, and Jin hated it.

Jin missed their little hugs and gesture and signs of affection between each other, but he couldn’t do anything about it. He knows that it was his own fault in the first place anyways. He can’t blame anyone but himself.

Even after 2 months, Jin’s relationship with Pi wasn’t turning any better, and Jin would break down where no one would see, and cry his heart out.

When Jin is alone, he would always be reminiscing while crying. His past memories with Pi had hurt him badly whenever he was reminded. The scene of Pi being comfortable and playful with other friends would always haunt him in his sleeps.

You will only treasure the stuff after it is lost.

Jin remembered what his mom once told him, but couldn’t understand it’s meaning until now. He understands that Pi was the most important being to him, but that was lost forever. His bond with Yamashita Tomohisa was gone forever. There will always be a crack in their relationship that can never be perfectly fixed, like a shattered mirror. Sure you can glue a shattered mirror back, but there will always be the evidence of the gap shown on the mirror, no matter how hard the person try to fit the shattered pieces back together.

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Pi, I’m so sorry. I did not know this earlier, but I know for sure now, that I love you. I had loved you since so long ago, but was too afraid to admit it. I will always love you, no matter what, but if this will make you uncomfortable, I want you to forget me. Forget me, who had hurt you in inexplicable ways. I learned that I couldn’t be okay alone. I will never be fine without you. Even though I will make you cry and suffer, I still want you to know that, I, Akanishi Jin, loves you with all my heart.

I love you, Yamashita Tomohisa. Please forgive me, just for one moment is enough. Just one moment where I can feel you love me back. I know I’m selfish, but please, just say you love me just once, even if you have to lie. That is all I ask for.

* * *

When Jin finally finished writing his last sentence in his diary, he closed his diary, and placed it neatly on the table.

Then, he laid himself on his bed, tears and blood dripping from his eyes and wounds. Jin lifted his wrist and eyes at the place where he had cut himself with a shatter piece of mirror. The thick red blood was dripping out the wound, and on his face. Jin’s face became pale, and as his hands lost all energy to stay up, it fell on the bed as the same time Jin’s eyes closed.

“Pi…I love you…and I’m sorry.”

Forgotten Chapter 6

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 22:24:54 GMT

Title: Forgotten Chapter 6
Characters: Jin and YamaPi( main) and one more main character coming up
Pairing: PIN (main) akame (?)
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin was forced to break up with YamaPi, but the reason remains a mystery, only Jin and Kame knows the reason.

It has been three days. No one really said anything in three days. Everyone was depressed. Kame avoided having any physical or eye contact with anyone except Jin. No one asked Kame anything else either, knowing that Kame would not say anything more.

Finally, when Kame was visiting Jin one day, YamaPi walked up to him, and shoved Kame to the corner. He couldn’t take it anymore.

YamaPi’s eyes were shot red, and his face expressed the hours he had to sleep, none. Kame didn’t resist or struggle at all, because he knows that he’s not in any position to even talk back.

“Kamenashi… You know what I want to know, now talk.” YamaPi tightened his grasp on Kame’s shirt, and glared hard at him.

“Yes, I do. But I won’t tell you anything more than what I already did.” Kame stated very clearly, looking up at YamaPi’s black eyes.

“Jin is dying, what else couldn’t you tell me!? It couldn’t hurt! What this can save Jin? Tell me!” YamaPi screamed desperately, tears surrounding his eyes.

“Pi…” Kame looked away, resisting telling YamaPi the truth… The truth was too much for YamaPi to know. Both Jin and Kame know that, that’s why he was willing to promise Jin not to tell YamaPi.

They were silent for a few minutes. Kame was guilty and helpless. YamaPi was also helpless and guilty, but he was also desperate to know the truth. He can’t help but be guilty. He knew that the truth about… whatever the truth was had something to do with him. He knew that Jin is dying because of him. He felt as if he was blinded and covered up with thousands of sheets, blocking him from everything. He is stuck in his little space, with limited knowledge if what and who really Jin is. All these years, Pi thought that he had know his lover well…. but he was wrong. Terribly wrong.

He could not forgive himself that he didn’t know Jin well enough to have known this coming. He should have known that Jin would never betray him and break his heart into pieces. He should have known that Jin didn’t break up with him on his own will. Now, YamaPi has regretted all the time that he thought Jin has betrayed him when he was really in pain. YamaPi felt so…pathetic.

Suddenly…. beep…….beep…..beep…beep..beep.beepbeepbeepbeepbeep

YamaPi and Kame immediately turned their heads to the source of the sound, the life machine beside Jin. Their eyes shot wide before rushing towards Jin. The machine was still beeping, but the lifeline was dead straight. Kame immediately pressed the help button several times.

“Jin! Jin wake up! Jin!” Tears were racing down YamaPi’s cheeks, and he couldn’t stop yelling Jin’s name.

Kame on the other side, covered his mouth, preventing himself to cry at this desperate situation.

Finally, in what it seemed forever, the doctor and nurses came in. The nurses pushed Kame and YamaPi outside the room while they were trying to save Jin.

Both YamaPi and Kame trembled in fear of losing Jin. They can hear to doctor and nurses muttering and the metals clinking. They can hear the shouts and yells coming out from the doctor, and most of all… they can hear Jin’s life machine still going flat. Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

Finally, after what it seemed like an eternity, the doctor finally decided declared Jin’s death.

“Certified, death at 12-“ Before the doctor could finish his sentence, YamaPi ran into the room, and pushed his way in through the crowd of doctors and nurses. He can hear the complaints coming from the nurses and doctors; he can also feel arms trying to pull him away from Jin, but he didn’t care. He just swung all the arms off, he swung all the arms who were trying to get him away from Jin.

“Jin! Wake up! You have to wake up! Jin!” YamaPi sobbed as loud as he could, while clutching onto Jin’s pale cold hand. YamaPi then tried rubbing his hands on Jin’s, trying to direct heat to his hands, but failed. “Jin…”

When he lost all faith and energy, the nurses and doctors were finally able to pull YamaPi off Jin. YamaPi kneeled on the ground, hopeless and soulless, his eyes staring at the lifeless Jin.

Then…something happened. It sounded faint at first, but it definitely did happen. Beep…Beep…Beep…Beep…

It was the life machine. Jin’s heart was beating again! The doctors rushed towards Jin and begin saving him again.

Kame then helped YamaPi up, and they walked over to the back of them room. They stood helplessly in the back of the room, hoping that Jin will survive, and finally wake up.

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45 minutes later…

Some people of JE rushed in the hospital in the past 45 minutes, but some couldn’t due to their hectic schedule, but all the members of KT-TUN were there.

They all waited outside the surgery room for what it seemed the longest time, hoping that Jin will come out of the room, awake.

Finally, after the long wait, the doctor (surgeon) came out.

The boys immediately rushed towards the doctor, all asking and talking at once for Jin’s information.

The doctor settled everyone down, and replied. “Fortunately, Akanishi san survived this time, but he is weaker than ever after today. His blood stopped pumping for a while, causing his heart to stop. We were able to bring Akanishi san back form the edge of dying, but we can’t guarantee that we can save him the next time this happens.

With that said, the doctor left and went down the corridor, leaving the big group of boys frozen and speechless, but they were also relieved that Jin had survived.

But before they can even swallow down the breaking news, 5 nurses pushed the bed where Jin was lying out the surgery room.

All the boys rushed to look at Jin, but all they could see was a lifeless, pale person, who looked dead.

YamaPi grabbed Jin’s cold hand to his, and cried. “Jin…you have to be strong…you have to recover from this, you can’t leave me like this. You still owe me an explanation! Jin! Wake up…” YamaPi held on to Jin’s hand as long as he could, before being pulled back from the other boys.

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One week later…

When YamaPi arrived at the hospital, he saw 5 police cars in front of the entrance. Something told him that this was not good. This sent a chill down his spine.

YamaPi rushed out of his car, and ran into the hospital, only to be stopped by a police.

“Excuse me, are you a friend of Akanishi san’s?” The police’s question secure YamaPi’s nervousness that he felt earlier.

“Y-yes…What’s the p-problem, officer?” YamaPi tried hard not to show his trembling voice.

“Well… the problem is that… Somebody broke in yesterday, and kidnapped (do they still say kidnap if it’s an adult?) Akanishi san.

With that said, YamaPi sprinted and ran into the hospital, and ran directly to Jin’s room.

In front of his room, there were dozens of police surrounding the entrance, but YamaPi pushed his way in, ignoring all the complaints and insults.

Once YamaPi could get a clear view of the room, he eyes immediately went to the bed where Jin had been for the past weeks or so.

It was empty. The bed was empty. There were police stickers (or whatever that was they use to surround the area) surrounding Jin’s hospital bed.

With that, YamaPi knew that nothing had been touched after Jin was kidnapped. Then he noticed a letter on the bed.

YamaPi wanted to get to the letter, but was forced out of the room before getting close.

His mind was a mess. His emotions are all over the place. First his love of the life broke up with him abruptly, and then they got in a car accident. What’s more is that Jin is hurt trying to protect him, and then Kame comes out and said that Jin still loves him. And when YamaPi thought that the chaos is going to be all over, he was wrong.

It was hard for YamaPi when Jin left for America, but when Jin left for America; at least he knew that Jin would be coming back. But now…

Now Jin is kidnapped. More importantly, under the health situation Jin was at, being kidnapped wasn’t the best treatment. And YamaPi won’t know if there was even a chance that Jin will be able to come back to his side.

With all those going on his head, YamaPi slumped onto the ground, and let his emotions turn to tears, and closed his eyes, and let his head fall to the ground.

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Sorry i took so long to update =( But here it is!
I'll try to update the next chapter within the week or so, but i'm getting lazy, and my teachers keep on giving me unti tests ><
Anyways... Hope you'll like this chapter...

In the next chapter, there will be a big change, and Jin will be there! Alive and good and all! Oh, and happy halloween =D

Forgotten Chapter 5

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 01:34:18 GMT

Title: Forgotten Chapter 5
Characters: Jin and YamaPi( main) and one more main character coming up
Pairing: PIN (main) akame (?)
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin was forced to break up with YamaPi, but the reason remains a mystery, only Jin and Kame knows the reason.

Weeeewooooweeeewooooo ß the sound of the ambulance (I think that’s who it’s suppose to sound like?)

The hospital was full of people. Since there were idols involved in a major car accident, the hospital was more crowded than usual. There were people trying to get through (mostly fans), nurses and doctors trying to calm everyone down, securities trying to get the paparazzi out of the hospital, and more importantly, people of JE were entering the hospital.

Despite the noise going on outside and everywhere near him, YamaPi was focusing on what happened 20 minutes ago.

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YamaPi woke up a few minutes after the truck had crashed them, and slowly regained full consciousness. When he did, he realized that Jin was on top of him, unconscious.

When YamaPi wanted to wake Jin up, he then realized that Jin was hurt badly. There were shattered glass pierced in his back, arms and head, causing him to bleed everywhere. Also, YamaPi seemed to realize that Jin might have banged his head with something hard, causing his head on the side to bleed violently.

When tears were about the leave YamaPi’s eyes, he wanted to fight them, and just get Jin to wake up, but he suddenly comprehended something.

Jin was on top of him. Jin was trying to save him. He dodged most of the damage for him. It was then YamaPi couldn’t control his tears anymore.

“Jin…wake up…wake up… don’t sleep…” YamaPi shook Jin a bit, hoping that Jin will wake up, but failed miserably.

“Jin…wake up…please wake up…J-Jin…” YamaPi began to sob and wept, and kept on shaking Jin, until the ambulance came.

Even when the ambulance came, and the helpers were getting them out of the car, Pi’s hand still wont let go of Jin’s.

All that time, YamaPi’s eyes wont stop looking at Jin. He watched was Jin kept on bleeding, his eyes not opening, and his face getting paler and paler, and he can’t do anything about it.

Then, he kept on thinking, “Jin…saved me…Jin went and saved me…”

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YamaPi was suddenly disturbed in his thought, when a hand tapped on his back. He looked behind him, and found the members of NewS and KT-TUN standing behind him, wearing and extremely worried face.

YamaPi’s tears started to fall again, and he immediately grabbed Ryo’s arm, and ran into his embrace.

“R-Ryo…J-Jin…Jin h-he…I can’t…He was b-bleeding so much and…” YamaPi couldn’t say anything comprehendible to this situation, and all Ryo could do was pat his back, and try to calm YamaPi.

10 minutes later, when YamaPi was finally calm enough, he explained the story to all the members of NewS and KT-TUN. During the middle of the story, YamaPi started to break down, but managed to explain the situation clearly.

People started shed tears, while some have already started crying in the middle of the story. Then, no more than one minute after YamaPi finished explaining, everyone was crying and trembling. Koki even punched on the wall, chipping the paint off. Then, the doctor came in and interrupted them.

“Um… Excuse me, Yamashita san?” The doctor tried to interrupt as gently as possible.

YamaPi turned his head to the doctor, and nodded. “The driver in the same car accident as you has awaked, it looks like he’ll be able to survive like you did. Luckily, his injuries aren’t as bad as Akanishi san’s.”

It took the whole group at least a couple of seconds to swallow that information, and when they did, YamaPi immediately stood up, and grabbed the doctor’s arm.

“Then what about Jin!? Is Jin going to be okay? Doctor! You have to save Jin! You have to!” YamaPi was at the edge of breaking down again, but Ryo pulled YamaPi away from the doctor.

“Akanishi san’s injuries are close to fatal, so he’s hurt pretty badly. He got sharp, broken glass piercing his back, arm and head, he broke 2 of his rib bones, and his head is suffering from serious damage.” The doctor slowly broke the news to the group, and slowly, YamaPi lost all his energy to even stand up.

“Will…will Jin be able to survive?” Ryo slowly broke the question to the doctor, while looking down on the ground all the time.

The doctor went silent for a few seconds, and finally replied. “There’s a huge chance that Akanishi san will not survive, and even if he did, he’d most likely to be in a coma forever. So now it’s up the Akanishi san’s own power, and will to survive.” The doctor said it with an apologetic face. “Yamashita san, you were lucky that Akanishi san was protecting you. If he had not, you’d be hurt pretty badly too. But because he did, you’re saved from this accident. But unfortunately, Akanishi san received double the damage this way.” The doctor bowed, and left the room.

Everyone went silent. They couldn’t say anything after hearing what the doctor said.

Luckily, after 20 minutes, they received the news that Jin is save for now, but his situation is still unstable, but at least he’s save, for now. But the doctor did remind them that Jin would most likely be in a coma. And the chance of him waking up is slim to none, based on Jin’s will.

No one had said anything for the past hour, and YamaPi…YamaPi just sat on the bed where Jin was lying on. At times, YamaPi would caress Jin’s pale face, while his hand was always grasping onto Jin’s, hoping that when Jin wakes up, he would be the first person Jin will see. There were only Jin and YamaPi in the room for a long time, and suddenly, Ryo, Nakamaru, Massu and Kame went in the room.

“Pi… you should get something to eat, and some rest too.” Ryo said worriedly.

YamaPi just shook his head. “I can’t leave his side. It was my fault that Jin is here. It was my entire fault. If…If Jin would have just let me die, he wouldn’t be here right now.” YamaPi cried out while grasping hard onto Jin’s hand.

No one said anything for a while, but Kame finally broke in.

“No…Jin would never just watch you die or get hurt in front of him and not do anything about it.”

Everyone looked at Kame instantly, with a confuse look on their faces.

“What-what do you mean…?” YamaPi slowly worded out his question, while trembling and slowly letting out his tears.

“ok…I cant tell you anymore than this. Jin still loves you. His love for you have never lessen, and Jin and I are not together.” Kame looked away while confessing.

“W-what…?” Ryo, Massu and Nakamaru all asked the same question.

“I’m sorry. I can’t tell you anything else further. I already broke part of Jin’s promise by telling you this. But I only told you this because if I were Jin, I’d let you know that Jin would have done the same thing again. He wouldn’t let you get hurt, Pi, and he wouldn’t want you to blame all this to yourself.” Kame looked away again, and left the room, leaving a room full of shocked people.

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Next Chapter: YamaPi confronts Kame, and something is going to happen to Jin.

I roughly edited this once, so if there are any mistakes, please forgive me, and i'm sorry. Next chapter's coming in a few days or so, depends on my homework. =P

Forgotten Chapter 4

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 00:32:50 GMT

Title: Forgotten Chapter 4
Characters: Jin and YamaPi( main) and one mroe main character coming up
Pairing: PIN (main) akame (?)
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin was forced to break up with YamaPi, but the reason remains a mystery, only Jin and Kame knows the reason.

Everything was wrong. Everything. Ever since Jin went to America, nothing went right. Especially not for YamaPi.

Ever since the day when YamaPi found Kame’s cell phone in the park, he got more and more depressed and miserable. The hole in his heart got bigger and bigger, threatening to swallow and consume his whole body and mind. The pain in his heart was unbearable and it had killed YamaPi.

YamaPi kept on thinking. He kept on thinking about the day he found Kame’s Cell phone in the park. He kept on refreshing his memories of him and Jin together. He kept on trying to resume the happiness he once had. All of that were running through his mind everyday. He would ask himself, why would Jin keep in contact with Kame, and Kame only? Jin didn’t even contact with anyone after he left America, except for his family and Kame. Not even him. Then, it was when YamaPi would jeer at himself everyday. “Why would he contact me… me of all people…”

This went on for as long as YamaPi could remember… Until the day Jin came back.

* * *

Today is the day. Jin will be back. YamaPi was anxious and excited all day. There was this unexplained happiness in his heart, and can overpower Pi at any moment. He knew Jin was the man who had broke his heart into millions of unfixable pieces, but he can’t help but be happy about Jin’s return.

Now that Jin is back, the hole in YamaPi’s heart suddenly shrunk for a bit. For the first time in months, YamaPi was relieved to see Jin. Jin’s face structures and his features made Pi’s heart throb. It had been more than 6 months.

Every night, when YamaPi knew that Jin wasn’t around, he’d get nightmares. He’d dream about the day of their break up over and over again. He would scream and jump up every time. He would start crying, and clutching onto the sheet. Knowing that Jin is millions of kilometres away from him, YamaPi would feel more insecure than usual. But now that Jin is back, YamaPi knows that Jin is not far away form him, YamaPi could sleep better. At least… until he saw Jin and Kame together.

It happened several times already. Every time it happened, YamaPi can’t help but look away. Ever since Jin left for America on such a short notice, the members in KAT-TUN weren’t that supportive with Jin. Every member except for Kame. Kame didn’t seem to have anything to say but wished Jin good luck. And when Jin is finally back, Kame was the only one who welcomed him back with open arms.

Ever since Jin is back, he didn’t seem to talk much. He would just smile and nod at people in his way. He seems to only ever talk to Kame. YamaPi was jealous at that fact. He knew he shouldn’t be jealous over them, but he is. He didn’t want to admit it, but he can’t ignore that feeling.

It had been a several times, which YamaPi saw Jin crying in Kame’s embrace. That developed a mix feeling in YamaPi’s heart. One was jealousy. YamaPi was jealous that Jin was in the arms of Kame, and not himself. Second was anxious. He was anxious about what Jin was crying about. It had pained him to see Jin cry like that. Third was shocking. It had shocked him to see Jin cry like that. There was pain in Jin’s eyes. The amount of pain was Jin feeling was not any smaller than what YamaPi felt. Pi was also scared to know that. Something happened to Jin, and he can’t do anything to help. He’s scared that Jin might slip through his hands and get away again.

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One day, both KAT-TUN and NewS were organized to have a shooting together. They were to go to Osaka to have this shooting, so JE had prepared several vans to drive all the members there. For some reason, Jin and YamaPi were late, and missed the van. Luckily, there was a photographer left in the building, so he offered both Jin and YamaPi a ride to Osaka.

At first, YamaPi and Jin didn’t want to get in the car together, but they had no choice. Johnny san himself ordered them to get the Osaka as soon as possible, and the train station was a dangerous place for two popular idols to go to at daylight. So they got on the photographer’s car, and sat as far away from each other as possible.

As for the photographer, since he works at the JE building, he knew there was a fight between the two, so he didn’t bothered to try talking to any of them.

The car had 5 seats. The photographer was driving, so he took the driver seat, and some of his equipments occupied the other front seat. So there were only 3 seats left on the back. Jin and YamaPi chose to both seats beside the windows, so they can watch the view outside the car while ignoring each other.

After driving for around 45 minutes, Jin slowly fell asleep, using the car window to support his head. Of course, YamaPi noticed this, and cannot help but look at Jin’s innocent face. Jin’s face had never been so innocent and pure ever since their break up. And the atmosphere between them had never been so peaceful either, after their break up. This feeling flew so smoothly and gently in YamaPi’s mind, and he wanted this to last long.

Suddenly, YamaPi lifted his hand to caress Jin’s cheeks, the driver started to scream.

Both Jin and YamaPi were in shock, and looked towards the driver. There was a large truck heading towards their car, and is going to hit them in less than seconds.

YamaPi was shocked frozen in his seat, and the driver was screaming like hell. Everything happened so fast, and Jin had no choice but to unbuckle his seat belt, and lean over to YamaPi.

“Pi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” Jin screamed as he covered YamaPi’s body with his own, trying to block all the damage that was going to happen to YamaPi.

BOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

5 minutes later…

YamaPi woke up, feeling dizzy. His arms hurt, and his head was bleeding a little by a small amount of broken pieces of glass. He was bleeding, but his injuries were not serious at all. When he regained more of his consciousness, he realized that he was the only one who had woke up. Slowly, as Pi refreshed his mind about what happened 5 minutes, he noticed Jin.

“Jin!!!” Pi screamed and screamed Jin’s name as he saw hi ex boyfriend on top of him, bleeding and unconscious.

“JIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

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I'll update the next chpater soon. Maybe tmr or the day after. I need to finish this fic beore writing a Ryoda fic. So please enjoy this fic, and wait for the Ryoda one =) I think my writing got a lot worse over the summer -_- and i didn't edit this chapter, so forgive my mistakes ><

Next Chapter: Jin is badly hurt. Will he live or die? (hmm....should i let Jin die or survive...?) YamaPi wants to talk to Kame.

Comments are LOVED <3

Forogtten Chapter 3

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 20:13:30 GMT

Title: Forgotten Chapter 3
Characters: Jin and YamaPi( main) and one mroe main character coming up
Pairing: PIN (main) akame (?)
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin was forced to break up with YamaPi, but the reason remains a mystery, only Jin and Kame knows the reason.

A few weeks after Jin and YamaPi broke up, Jin decided to go to America. JE approved of this. They did all this fake acting and media news, tricking everyone into thinking that Jin really is going to school in America.

The ones, who really know the reason to why Jin is going to America, were only really Johnny san, Kame, and Jin himself. The people in JE knew that “going to school” was a fake excuse to tell the media, but they themselves don’t know the truth either. And neither does YamaPi, so he got devastated.

Although he was hear broken, and hated Jin for what he did to him, he can’t help but be curious and sad. Up until now, he hated Jin. He hated what Jin did, and he wanted to avoid Jin forever. Now that he got his wish, he wasn’t happy at all.

Of course, YamaPi didn’t ask the reason. He just let Jin go…he let him go. He let him get away from him.

Up until now, YamaPi thought that he wanted Jin out of his life. He wanted Jin out of his life forever, wished that he had never met this boy. He hoped that Jin would be gone, with all the memories with him. But now that he finally got his wish, he regretted it. He never knew that it would still pain him to see Jin actually out of his life.

It’s weird for YamaPi. One side, he hates Jin, and yet, one part of him wants to hold on to him. Even though Jin had cheated on him, and shattered his heart into a thousand pieces, he still wants Jin to be by his side. He wants to know that Jin is still around him.

Now that the news of Jin leaving has spread, he panicked. He didn’t know what to do. He doesn’t want to face Jin, let along ask him to the reason that he is leaving for America. So when the day came, YamaPi couldn’t do anything. He knew in his heart, that if he had said anything, there might be a chance of Jin staying. The chance might be slim, but it was worth a try. YamaPi’s heart was throbbing with pain, but he just stood there, speechless, when Jin was leaving.

Jin left. He’s gone.

Those sentences were all that was left in YamaPi’s mind. Those sentences kept on repeating and repeating over and over again in his mind. The voice kept on getting louder and louder, and the images of Jin and him together just kept on flashing back in his mind.

YamaPi just stood there. Suffering from the voices and images flashing in his mind. All he could do was, let his tears flow out his eyes, in order to let out parts of his pain. Then he collapsed. He remembered the look Jin gave him before leaving for the plane. Jin’s face was pale. It was still beautiful even with the sad expression dawned on his face. His face was as if saying, “Goodbye, Pi. I’m sorry.”

* * * * *

It had been weeks since Jin left. Ever since Jin left, KAT-TUN seemed to have lost their spirit. Without Jin, the whole JE building seemed to be less fun. More importantly, without Jin, YamaPi is more dull and weary than before. YamaPi seemed…dead.

One day, KAT-TUN and NewS had a photo shoot together. YamaPi didn’t like it. He didn’t like it one bit. He didn’t want to work with the group Jin was in. He didn’t want to be reminded of Jin more than he already was. More importantly, he didn’t want to see Kamenashi Kazuya. The man who took Jin away from him.

*In the photo shoot area~

Everyone worked hard posing for the photo shoot, but during the shooting parts, YamaPi tends to avoid getting close to Kamenashi as much as possible. Being in the same room as him made YamaPi sick. His stomach twisted in a painful way that suffocated him both physically and mentally. He didn’t want to be around Kamenashi, period. The reasons are clear and obvious, so Kamenashi didn’t bother getting close to YamaPi either.

Finally, after 3 straight hours of posing and taking pictures, YamaPi can finally take a break. He desperately wanted to get out of the room, free himself from the suffocation.

He walked outside of the building, and into the nearest park.

YamaPi slowly walked over to the swings, and sat on one of them. He slowly rocked himself on the swing, and let his mind go somewhere else, out of his reach.

As he dawned his eyes on the ground, his feet kicking randomly at rocks, he spotted something shiny.

YamaPi got out of the swing, and kneeled down. He used his hands to remove the sand, which was covering the “shiny” object.

It was a cell phone. It was a rather new cell phone, and rather expensive.

There seem to be a lock on the cell phone, so YamaPi didn’t bother trying to play with the phone. Just when YamaPi was about the place the cell phone back where he found it, it rang.

It was a text message. YamaPi got curious, so he opened the text message, but he could not believe what was written in the message.

Kame,

Thank you so much.

Jin.

Eyes shot wide, YamaPi clutched onto the phone hard, and his heart started swelling again.

Finally, he collapsed. His whole body slumped onto the ground, and started crying. He was weeping so loud, so hard. Using his tears to let out his pain, he cried and cried, until he can’t feel his eyes anymore.

“Jin…” YamaPi kept on crying out Jin’s name as he wept, but that only got him to cry harder. He could not breathe or even make out a simple sentence.

Finally, after one last cry, YamaPi shouted out Jin’s name, he stopped crying. He stopped breathing or thinking. He just sat there, tears all over his face, hair messed up badly, and eyes swelled up like crazy.

He only said one word after.

“Why…”

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Im working on the next chapter now, so im probably gonna post the next chapter either today or tmr =P

comments are loved~

Forgotten

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 01:51:43 GMT

Title: Forgotten Chapter 2
Characters: Jin and YamaPi( main) and one mroe main character coming up
Pairing: PIN (main) akame (?)
Genre: Angst
Summary: Jin was forced to break up with YamaPi, but the reason remains a mystery, only Jin and Kame knows the reason.

Ever since that day, Jin and YamaPi had been ignoring each other, avoiding seeing each other as much as possible.

No one knew why, but the atmosphere was unbearable. People had tried to talk them out of their break up, but the two didn’t seem to budge, or even tell anyone one small detail about their break up.

A lot of people had tried. Ryo, Tegoshi, Ueda, and hell even Junnosuke turned off his forever going smile and try to talk Jin out of this mess. But none of them succeed.

No one seemed to have any hope in the two anymore. They just didn’t know why. They wanted to know why. Why would the once happy couple break up, all so suddenly? It was too shocking. Everyday, YamaPi will bring this sad, miserable face to work, acting like a mindless zombie. And Jin… Jin was does the same, but with Kame by his side. People knew that this whole mess had something to do with Kame, but none of them ask or said anything…except for Ryo.

One day, Ryo came up to Kame, and pulled him to a corner.

Kame was forced to a corner, facing an angry and desperate Ryo. He knew what Ryo wanted to know, so he spoke before Ryo did.

“Ryo, this doesn’t involve you, so stay away from this.” Kame looked away from Ryo, and crossed his arms on his chest.

“What do you mean it doesn’t involve me? My best friends are ignoring each other, acting like the other is invisible every single minute! And you have something to do with it. Don’t lie to me!” Ryo got more and more angry as he spoke, and had his hands clutching on to Kame’s collar.

“Look. Think whatever you like, but I’m not going to tell you anything.” Kame glared at Ryo one last time before setting himself free and walked away.

At the same time, Jin was there all along, standing at the doorway.

When Kame walked out the room, he saw Jin, and his apologetic face.

They stared at each other for a long time, and then Jin finally broke the silence.

“Kame…I’m sorry I dragged you into this.” Jin bowed down his head. Kame then took Jin’s hands into his, and said. “It’s okay. You asked for my permission before doing this. You don’t have to apologize. I don’t mind taking the blame.” Kame then brought up a grin, which made Jin’s guilt flew away.

“Kame…I don’t know how to thank you… I just… I’m scared…” Tears were flowing down Jin’s pale face. He tried to wipe them away, but as he failed, he looked away, trying to hide his tears.

“Jin… You did this because you love Yamashita. Maybe he won’t understand it, but at least I do. You even went and said those harsh things to him in order to get him to hate you.” Kame pulled Jin into a hug, and gently caresses his back.

“I know…but it’s just so hard. I can’t stand looking at YamaPi like this, knowing and I was the one who caused him to be miserable. Kame… I just… I just want to kill myself for doing this. But if I don’t, then he’ll be even more miserable when he finds out.” Jin wept hard on Kame’s shoulders helplessly.

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Sorry, this chapter is kinda short, but im working on the next chapter right now! maybe i'll have the next chapter post tomorrow~ please wait

Forgotten

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 01:21:17 GMT

Title: Forgotten Chapter 1
Characters: Mainly Jin and YamaPI, and this mysterious character that will show up later.
Genre: ANGST
Pairing: PIN (for now), and vaguely akame(?)
Summary: Jin and Pi were happy, but something happened. Both are miserable, but somehting seemed to be wrong. Something happened, but no one seems to know what that something is.

They were together. They were satisfied. They were happy. They had anything the word “happy” requires. But now, they are miserable.

Everyone knew, but they never really said anything about it. When Jin and YamaPi were together, they were happy. Their sense of innocence was what made them so carefree and happy. They only needed one thing to be happy, and that was each other. Sure, they might seem dumb sometimes, and maybe also very immature, but at least they were happy. They were in love with each other; there was no question about that.

Everyday seemed like heaven to them. It didn’t matter if they got yelled at or scolded by their manager or choreographer, as long as they know that they have each other at the end of the day to comfort them, they don’t care. Everyday, they would bring up this beautiful smile up on their faces that they don’t even know about it. Their relationship was so pure and innocent, people admired and envied them within their hearts. Even if the world crashed, as long as they still have each other, Jin and YamaPi will be okay. At least, until a few weeks before Jin’ went away to America. That was when everything fell apart.

Something happened to Jin, something happened so suddenly, so horrifying, that Jin had to give up YamaPi, and leave. It was so sudden, that YamaPi simply couldn’t take it.

* * *

A few weeks before Jin left for America.

Like always, YamaPi happily skipped from the NewS’ dressing room to his lover’s dressing room. Humming his favourite song, “Twinkle Twinkle little stars”, his slammed KAT-TUN’s dressing room door open, and ran to his lover, Jin.

Unusually, there was only Jin in the room, and YamaPi being YamaPi, he was too happy to notice the weird look on Jin’s face.

YamaPi ran directly to Jin, and developed him a gigantic hug.

“Jinnn~~” YamaPi wined in a high pitch voice. “I missed you! I haven’t seen you in like 10 hours and 27 minutes!” YamaPi checked his watch before finishing his sentence.

Little as he knows, there was a dull and miserable look that dawned on Jin’s pale face.

As a few seconds pasted, realizing that Jin had not said anything, Pi pulled Jin out of his hug, and looked at Jin’s face. Jin’s face was pale, his eyes were shot red, and his eyebrows crunched together. YamaPi’s immediately dropped, and his hands moved up to caress Jin’s face.

“Jin…What’s wrong? Were you crying? Tell me… Jin…” A painful look was set on Pi’s face without any hesitation.

“Yamashita…” Jin pulled Pi’s hands away coldly, and referred to Pi in a formal way. “Jin…” YamaPi was shocked when Jin had called him Yamashita. Jin had never called him Yamashita before. It had always been Pi or YamaPi. Formal ways of calling each other does not even exist in their world.

“Jin…What’s wrong, honey?” YamaPi’s voice trembled as he felt dead looking at Jin’s cold eyes.

“Let’s break up.” Jin bluntly worded out each word like a stab in both their hearts.

“W-what…?” YamaPi froze for a few minutes, but managed to ask why.

“Pi…” Jin let go of Pi’s hands, and stood up. Pi followed Jin almost immediately. “Pi, I think we should break up.” Jin looked at YamaPi with his eyes dead cold, his expression serious.

“W-what…Jin…stop kidding…it’s not funny anymore.” There were tears forming around Pi’s eyes, but he reluctantly wiped them away.

“Pi… I’m in love with Kame. I’m sorry. I can’t love you any longer. I don’t expect you to forgive me, but I’m sorry. I have to leave you.” Jin looked away while saying all those harsh words. And before YamaPi can consume all those, Jin left the room, leaving a dumbfounded YamaPi, crying his heart out in the room.

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Hi everyone! I'm back! Just as i promised! Well...one month late, but yea...here i am! I'm soo sorry it took me this long to update! I got lazy and kinda busy at the same time with school and stuff. I promise i'll update more often! This chapter is a bit short, because i didn't have much time ><

I hope you guys will like this fic! Comments are loved! I'm going to write a Ryoda fic soon, maybe after this fic is finished, or even before that...so plz wait =)

August 19th....

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 15:26:41 GMT

Title: The Forgotten Birthday
Characters: Ueda, Ryo
Pairings: Ryoda, PIN
Notes: Based on my feelings about ppl forgetting my birthday all the times *cries*
Summary: Ryo forgets Ueda's birthday...

October 1st....

Only 4 days left until my birthday...

Will they remember?

Will he remember?

Will anyone remember?

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I threw the thoughts away and went to bed. I close my eyes shut, but i can seem to get myself away from reality and into the world of lies and fantasy, where everything is all fake and perfect, dream.

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October 2nd...

Two more days...

Everything is going on as usual. No one asked me about anything about my birthday yet. Will my birthday be forgotten again? Like the past 2 years?

The sting in my heart sparked in a sudden, and my hand reached to clutch my shirt to try easing up my sting of loneliness. But it's not that easy.

Maybe I should give up. It would be insane of me to think that him, of all people will remember this day.

I jeered at myself and slide down against the bathroom door that I had been leaning on for hours.

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October 3rd...

One more day...

No one seem to care. The pain in my heart grew. I feel scared. What if no one remembers tomorrow? I mean.... no one said or mentioned anything yet. I feel scared. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that everything will go so normal, so casual, so.... usual...tomorrow.

I walked into the shower, with my clothes still on, and turned on the shower. Cold water was dripping down my face and body, but i didn't care. I shivered not because I was cold, because I was so afraid.

I let the tears fall from my eyes, not caring anymore. I wrapped my self into a ball, and sobbed my heart out. Of all the people...at least i want him to remember.

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October 4th

This is it. Today is my birthday.

I'm too scared to go out. At least this way, I'll feel better. Lying to myself would at least ease up my pain on the outside. If i don't go out today, there's the excuse of no one remembering my birthday or not.

I cover myself under the thickness of the blanket. Using the advantage of the thickness to block myself from the outside world. I was still dripping wet from the "shower" yesterday. My forehead is burning like fire, but I didn't care. I still couldn't fight the tears from falling from my eyes. I know i can't fight them, but i still tried.

Then i thought... No one called.

He didn't call....

Ryo...why didn't you call?

At least throw some insults at my face...Just...at least...notice me.

At least proof to me that I do exist in your world. Just give me some reassurance.

I let myself lay on my bed still freezing wet. I stared at my pale white ceiling, with my soulless eyes.

Nothing happened.

My apartment was silent....BLANK

It was like no one cared if I existed or not.

.......... A tear slided across my cheeks.

*TSAK* <-- door opens

Ueda turned his attention to the person whom just walked in the door with a birthday cake in his hands. His eyes wide, surprised.

"R-Ryo...?" Ueda whimpered Ryo's name as Ryo placed the cake on the table and walked closer to his bed.

"Happy Birthday...Tatsuya." Ryo wrapped his around the wet Ueda and gently kissed Ueda on the forehead.

The End....

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Awww...i wish someone remembers my brithday>< I mean...my parents never do-_- I wrote this out of my feelings these days, and transferred them into a Ryoda fic... Although there's still only hours away from my birthday (I'm at a different country, so the timeline is different), I still wish someone care that its my birthday/.....

Return of the baka LAST CHAPTER

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 17:52:08 GMT

Title: Return of the baka
Characters: Jiro, Jin, Ryo and Ueda
Notes: Sequel to "Do you hate me?"
Summary: Ueda confronts Jiro, and Jiro decides to confess!?

There they are. Ueda and Jiro were in a nice coffee shop, sitting in front of each other, sipping their coffee awkwardly.

Finally, Jiro broke the awkwardness between the two by asking, "What did you want to talk about?"

It was then when Ueda started with his "Ums" and "Uhs". Then, Ueda took a big breath, and began, "Jiro, I think it's time for me to tell you this." Ueda adjusted his eyes to Jiro's, and continued. "I'm in love with Ryo, and he's in love with me. We're happy together, really. I know Ryo had put me in unexplainable pain and suffer, but we're together finally, and I'm happy like this." Ueda carefully observed every little movements and facial expressions from Jiro, but there was really nothing on Jiro's face right now.

"Tatsuya... I can tell... I can tell that you're really happy, and that is why I won't try to separate you and that jerk. To be honest... When I found out about you and Ryo... My heart was... I felt like my heart had been ripped and stomped on a thousand times... But now... I don't know... Honestly.... My heart isn't as... broken as i thought it would be." Jiro looked down at his half empty coffee cup, and played with the coffee spoon by stirring the leftover coffee endlessly.

Ueda now folded his arms on the table, awaiting the rest of Jiro's reply. "I don't know why... but after I met..." Jiro hesitated, but continued. "After I met this person... I don't know... Whenever I'm with this person... My heart would beat faster and faster. And I find it hard to resist not be able to be with him. And my heart felt the same when I found out about you and Ryo when I see this person with another man...but it hurt even more..." Jiro clutched hard on his shirt where his bleeding heart located.

"Jiro..." Ueda reached his hand forward to hold Jiro's. "I seriously don't know what this feeling towards this person means...I'm scared... I mean... I'm suppose to be in love with you, Tatsuya... Now...I don't know anymore.... I feel like... I've betrayed you, Tat-chan... I feel bad... I feel like I'm the worst person on earth..." Jiro's eyes went red, and he tears surrounding his eyes were threatening to fall.

Ueda clutched onto Jiro's hands tighter, and began. "It's okay, Jiro. You didn't betray me. Really... So don't feel bad at all! And about this person... Don't feel scared! You're in love with this person! You love this person even more than you love me. Jiro, you only love me as a friend, a really good friend. But as for this person... You're IN love with him. Jiro... Go for it. You should be able to chase after the dreams you want. You should be able to chase after what you want without being afraid of the circumstances or troubles in the way...Because if you are able to go through anything for this person... That person is worth your love. No matter what you're going to go through or experience, if you don't try at first... you may never hold that peron's love in your own hands. Jiro... Believe me, I know."

Jiro's face is now covered in tears, but it didn't mater. Ueda gave Jiro a supporting smile, and continued. "Jiro... I love you as a friend, I always will, and I know you will too. Without the concerns for me, you're now free to chase after this person. I found my happiness... Now it's your turn. Remember, don't worry about the circumstances or other people's words. Just chase after your own happiness, because you're the only who can do it." Ueda gave Jiro another smile.

Jiro smiled back in return of Ueda's words, and said, "Thanks, Tatsuya. I needed that... especially from you." Jiro wiped away his tears, and continued, "If Ryo ever hurt you again, don't hesitate to dump him and beat the hell out of him! Then I'll do the same." Jiro and Ueda laughed for about a minute or so, and finished their coffee...

After a few minutes, Ueda began with a really awkward sentence. "Um...Jiro?" Jiro tiled his head and asked. "Hmm?" "Um...Remember that night when..." Ueda's face turned bright red, and Jiro seemed to get what Ueda meant.

Jiro chuckled a bit, and said. "Don't worry... Nothing really happened that night. It was just that... I was gonna do... that... with you... but I didn't... Because I know that it's not really fair to do it with you when you're not conscious. So I resisted the urge to, and I just held you i my arms and went to sleep that night." Jiro gave an embarrassed smile and laughed.

Ueda stared at Jiro for a few second, and smiled. "Thanks."

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The next day...

Jiro came up to Ryo and Ueda, and RYo just glared at Jiro while wrapping his posessive armsaround UEda.

"What do you want?" Ryo glared at Jiro and snarled, while Ueda just laughed secretly in Ryo's arms.

"I'm just here to tell you. If you hurt Ueda in any way, I will not forgive you, AND I'll kick your sorry little butt to the moon. That's all. Jya ne~" Jiro then gave them a goodbye kiss and skipped away while humming Twinkle Twinkle little stars.

Ryo just stared at Jiro's jumping back, dumbfounded for a few seconds.

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The next minute...

YamaPi and Jin were walking down the JE hall, decussing whether they should eat mango pudding for lunch, or strawberry ice cream for lunch. When they were about to agree on eating other for lunch plus fries for dessert, Jiro came along.

When YamaPi found Jiro, he was not happy. In fact, he didn't like Jiro at all because he seemed really close with Jin.

"JIN!!!" Jiro yelled out really loud from the end of the hall towards Jin and Yampi, who were standing in the middle of the hall. So there's really no point for Jiro to yell, but he did anyways. =P

"JIN! I'VE FINALLY DECIDED! I KNOW FOR SURE NOW! JIN! I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU! I LOVE YOU JIN!" Jiro screamed out his confession, loud enough for everyone to hear in JE.

YamaPi, still dumbfounded, immediately pulled the still Idon'tkowwhat'shappening Jin away and ran as fast as he could, dragging a baka Jin along. Jiro, still smiling, chased after Jin and YamaPI, while still yelling, "JIN!! I LOVE YOU!! <3"

If you had a television, and you were watching the chase like a show, you'd probably laugh to death. Three bakas running around in circles. Baka #1 was dragging SUPER BAKA #2 around while running away from Baka #3, who was shooting big pink, flying hearts at the SUPER BAKA #2. And SPER BAKA #2 is just eating an ice cream cone with chocolate stains on his face, still being dragged.

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On the other hand...

"Seems like you've created a problem for Pi." Ryo smirked while carefully observing the "TV show".

"....." Ueda just showed a dumbfounded face while being clutched tightly by Ryo's arms.

"Oh well...at least he's not my problem anymore...and plus..." Ryo leaned forward an kissed Ueda's full, inviting lips.

"It's gonna get a lot more interesting and funnier from now on."

THE END~

HI EVERYONE!!! Between shopping here and there and walking around saying hi to relatives, I've managed to find a lap top to finish this fic!! I hope you like this ending~~~ >< I'll TRY to update in between my busy scheual, and this lap top im using is pretty messed up >< the key board isn't working very well... the keys keep on juping everywhere...-_-

Anyways....I'm gonna turn 14 in.... 19 days or so =) oh..and the flight was long and tiring-_- I was stuck in a plan for 16 stright hours -_-
Lol...Enjoy this last chapter =)

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 08:29:37 GMT

Title: Return of the Baka
Notes: Sequel to "Do you hate me?"
CHaracters: Jiro, Jin, UEda, Ryo, Pi
PAirings: Ryoda, Jiro/UEda, Jiro/Jin, PIN
Summary: Ueda's childhood bestfriend/ ex boyfrined returns, and RYo is jealous.

“We have to talk, Tatsuya.”

Ueda knew that was coming. He had to talk sooner or later, just… not this soon.

Ueda walked across the empty dressing room with Ryo following him. Both of them settled down on a comfy white couch.

Ryo asked with a demanding tone once they sat down on the couch, “Tell me, who this Jiro really is.”

Ueda looked Ryo in the eyes, hesitating to reply, “Jiro…he…well…I should tell you the whole story instead.” Ueda finally gave up, and decided to tell Ryo everything using the right vocabulary.

Ryo stared at Ueda with his dark eyes, and crossed his arms against his chest.

Even though Ryo’s glaring scared Ueda a bit, but Ueda started anyways.

“J-Jiro and I were best friends since we were babies. Our parents are really good friends too.” Ueda was playing around with his fingers now, to ease up his nervousness he felt. Ryo just kept on staring at Ueda until he continued with his story.

“We talked about just anything back then, and we still do. But when we were around 12, Jiro’s parents had to move to another city because of their work, so Jiro and I couldn’t be as close as we wanted to be anymore. It was then when I met you, Ryo.” Ueda stared down at his fingers the whole time, but lifted his head back up to look at Ryo at the last sentence.

“Jiro and I still talk to each other on the phone, and we visit each other every now and then. But when I found out about my feelings for you, Ryo, I got… nervous and I was crushed, because I thought you would never return my feelings. Of course I told Jiro everything, and his words really helped me through the rough times.” Ryo twitched a bit when Ueda mentioned the last parts of that conversation.

“Even when… that incident happened… when you abandoned our friendship, Jiro was there for me. It was then when Jiro’s parents moved back in my neighbourhood. Jiro was a really good friend. He was with me and had my back every time. It was like fate…right after what happened with us, Jiro came back. If I didn’t have Jiro with me back then, I wouldn’t have know what to do, I would have collapsed.”

Ueda’s eyes got red at the beginning, and a tear flowed down his cheeks when he finished the last sentence. Ryo tensed up the whole time, and grabbed Ueda’s hands in his.

“I’m sorry…I should have listened to you back then…It hurts me to know that you were in such pain…” Ryo looked Ueda straight in the eyes with sorrow.

“It’s okay, Ryo. As long as we’re together at the end, all that pain was worth it.” Ueda smiled at Ryo, and continued on his story.

“When Jiro slowly saved me from collapsing, he confessed to me.” Ryo’s hands clutched onto Ueda’s tighter when the last part of the sentence was said. Ueda’s cheeks were slowly turning pink.

“Jiro knew that I still love you, but he didn’t care. He even told me if I wasn’t ready to be with him, I didn’t have to. But I did. I liked Jiro. I really did. I loved him in a lot of different ways…just not how I loved you, Ryo.” Ueda bent his head down the whole time, while the jealousy in Ryo’s heart increase.

“I was actually happy when I was with Jiro. Everything felt at ease when I’m with him. I just felt so comfortable and happy with him…I felt protected. Even the kisses and the actions lovers suppose to have didn’t bothered me. I actually liked those kisses from him. Jiro was a gentle and protecting guy. I felt so calm and happy whenever I’m with him. But I knew he couldn’t take your place in my heart, Ryo. No one could.”

Ryo clenched his teeth the whole time; his heart was burning with fire and jealousy. Only the last sentence calmed Ryo’s fury a bit.

“Finally…I confessed everything to Jiro. He understood. I felt really bad for hurting him, because Jiro really loved me. But I knew we couldn’t go on like that, so we split. Jiro understood, but he said that he’d wait for me until I love him back. I cried a lot that day, and Jiro held me close the entire day. Not soon after we broke up, Jiro had to go to Taiwan and finish his education there.”

Finally, Ueda finished his story; Ueda lifted his head back up, and exhaled the breath he had been holding. There were visible tearstains on the pale boy’s cheeks.

Ueda nervously shook his boyfriend’s hand when Ryo didn’t reply for 2 minutes. “Ryo? A-Are you mad??”

Ryo suddenly look at Ueda, making Ueda jump a little. “Did you sleep with him?”

There were no emotions in Ryo’s face or voice except a little anger. “Did you?”

Ueda’s face flushed that instant. “Um…well…kind of…”

Ryo’s hand clenched at the sofa hard, wrinkling the fabric. “Kind of?”

Ueda stuttered a bit, and hesitated. “Well…When we were still lovers, there was this party one night, and we both drank a bit alcohol. We knew we were underage, but our parents wanted us to try it anyways.”

Ryo grumbled a word, “And…?”

Ueda hesitated, but continued, “Umm…I got very drunk on my second sip at the wine, Jiro was too, but he was more sober than I was. Jiro carried me back home, but our parents decided to stay at Jiro’s place while we stayed at my house. And um…We made out on my bed for a while, then Jiro started taking our clothes off…”

Ueda’s face blushed redder and redder as every second passed by, while Ryo’s anger got bigger and bigger as every second passed by.

“We were still kissing really hard, and we kinda…well…touchedeachotherandmoaned as we kissed.” Ueda’s face got to a crimson shade that couldn’t even get any redder.

“And…um…Jiro pinned me down on the bed and kissed me again and again between saying I love you to me. And the next morning, I found myself only in my boxers on my bed, with Jiro only wearing boxers too hugging me. I didn’t really remember what happened the whole night, due to my…drunkenness…”

When Ueda barely finished his last word, Ryo screamed, “YOU SLEPT WITH HIM!?!?”

Ueda bent his head down and slowly said, “I think I did…I’m not sure…”

When Ueda started to say another word, Ryo shut him up by crushing his lips on Ueda’s hard, pinning the small boy on the couch.

“You and I haven’t even slept together yet, and now you’re saying you already did it with that stupid bastard!?” Ryo clenched his teeth and growled.

“But-“ When Ueda tried to protest, he was silenced again by Ryo.

“Tatsuya…I love you… I really do…and I’m really sorry for hurting.” Ryo finally calmed down a bit. “Tatsuya…I really want us to take another step…I really can’t know that Jiro slept with you and I didn’t yet…I really want to do this…” Ryo confessed while still pinning Ueda beneath him.

Ueda’s faced turned to dark crimson again, and simply said, “I love you too, Ryo.” And gave Ryo the signal by kissing him and wrapped his arms around Ryo’s neck.

*smex, smut *

* * * * *

“Hmmm…Where could Tatsu-chan be…?” Jiro asked out loud as Jin ate his ice cream cone. “Who knows? Uebo is an adult; he can take care of himself! Maybe he has some kind of practice or something.” Jin said as he licked his strawberry ice cream cone.

“Well…yeah…” Jiro licked his chocolate flavoured ice cream cone as he tried to push his worries away. “You got ice cream on your cheeks.” Jin giggles as he licked off the ice cream stain on Jiro’s cheeks.

Jiro’s face blushed and his heart beat got faster and faster.

“Yummy…Chocolate taste good!” Jin giggled and licked his own ice cream cone again.

Jiro’s heart beat faster and faster as he lifted his hand up to caress the part of his cheeks where Jin had licked him.

Could I…be in love with Jin? Oh my god…My heart’s beating so fast!

Jiro’s hand clenched his shirt where his heart is located as his heart beat faster and faster.

“Jiro chan? Aren’t you eating your ice cream?” Jin leaned forward and looked at Jiro’s eyes with his own big, watery eyes.

Jiro almost jumped up when Jin’s face got so close to his. “Yeah…I’m eating my ice cream.” Bumpbumpbumpbumpppppp ß Jiro’s heart beating

Jin gave Jiro a baka grin and finish eating his ice cream.

Jiro’s heart exploded when he saw Jin’s smile. His heart was beating faster than when he was with Ueda!!

Do I like Jin? But I’m in love with Tatsu-chan, aren’t I? No…I can’t be in love with Jin…I just can’t!

Jiro simply laughed his thoughts off and finished eating his ice cream.

Then when they were about to get up, YamaPi came and took Jin away. “Jin!! Where have you been? I’ve been looking everywhere for you!” Pi glared at Jiro all the time while he was talking to Jin.

“Oh! I was with Jiro chan! We were eating ice cream!” Jiro gave Pi a baka grin and kissed his on the cheeks.

Jiro nodded at Pi in return while Pi was still glaring at him. “Okay, We’re going now, Jin.”

“Bye, Jiro chan! See you tomorrow!” Jin turned back and waved at Jiro when the jealous YamaPi dragged him away.

Jiro waved Jin back, and the clenched at his shirt where his heart located.

Why did my heart ache when Jin kissed Yamashita on the cheeks? Why was I irritated to know that Jin and Yamashita are together….why?

Jiro tried to laugh his thoughts away, but even he couldn’t convince himself much.

* * * * *

The next day at JE…

When Ueda had his lunch break, he pulled Jiro aside, who was talking to Jin, outside.

“Jiro…I have something to tell you…” Ueda bent down his head and started the conversation.

To be continued...

AHH!!!! My plane flight's in....5 hours!! But i managed to finish this chapter! THeres only one more chapter left of this fic!!! I got some ideas from Hana Kimi =P
LOL I didnt actually write the smew and smut in this...cuz im too young for this?? Lol i don't know...I thinkyou'd all be surprise how old I am. Lol. I hope you'll all remember me even though i can't update until september!!>< I have a lot of fics planned out for the future!! Enjoy the fic =)

NExt Chapter: Uebo talks to Jiro. Jiro finally confess and admit his feelings fro Jin? Pi gets madly jealous.

Sequel to "Do you hate me?" - Return of the baka

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 07:06:17 GMT

Title: Return of the baka Chapter 1
notes: Sequel to Do you hate me?
Characters: Mainly Jin, Jiro, Pi, Ueda and RYo
pairings: Ryoda, PIN, Jiro/UEda? Jiro/Jin??
Summary: Ueda's childhood best friend, Jiro returned to Japan from studying in Taiwan, causing RYo and UEda's relationship to....?

Everyone knows. They weren’t hiding it. Ueda and Ryo were the newest couple in JE. Although everyone knew, they were also very shocked.

Ueda Tatsuya finally opened his mouth to speak again, and was actually happy. Ryo was still a quick-tempered hot head, but at least Ueda wasn’t one of his targets. Most importantly, Ryo and Ueda are IN LOVE. The once I-hate-you-go-die-and-burn-to-hell enemies had turned to lovers. That was shocking.

Everything went well afterwards. The couple loved each other. They were happy. After all that had happened, they were finally happy.

But one person is going to change everything, one person. (OMG WHO?)

* * *

Morning, 8: 35

Ueda and Ryo were sleeping peacefully in each other’s arms under the white covers. The smiles on their faces were unbreakable. They were happy.

click…ching!…door opens….door closes…boom…

Both Ueda and Ryo were slightly awakened by the noise. As the noise disappeared, Ueda went back to sleep, thinking that it was just his imagination. Ryo seemed to have believed that the noise came from his alarm clock, which, Ryo threw a pillow at, had crashed and died.

Ryo vaguely got up, and went to the bathroom to take a shower. Before he got up to walk over to Ueda’s bathroom, (they’re at Ueda’s apartment) Ryo gently caressed Ueda’s sleeping face, and landed a morning kiss on his lover’s cheeks.

A while after Ryo started taking a shower, and when Ueda was still sound asleep, a black shadow came sneaking in the couple’s room.

*Ommphhh!!!! *

Ueda was attack by a thief?? No, the person simply tackled the asleep Ueda and pinned him on the bed. (Does that count as being attacked? I don’t know…) “Tatsu!!!!’ The intruder exclaimed Ueda’s name and developed him a bear hug.

Still shock as he still was, Ueda manage to identify the intruder who broke into his house and tackled him down. “Jiro…?” Ueda stared at this “Jiro” with wide eyes, body trembling. “Tatsu!! I missed you!” Jiro exclaimed and wrapped his arms around Ueda’s neck again. After a few seconds later, Ueda let the reality sink in, and finally lit up a gigantic grin on his face. “I missed you too!” Ueda responded to Jiro’s hug and wrapped his own arms around Jiro’s waist.

The two locked their embrace still and tight for a few more seconds, and then soon pulled each other out for about an arm’s length. “Ne, Tatsu, I’ve got a surprise for you!” Jiro squeaked with excitement while grabbing onto Ueda’s delicate hands in his. “What surprise?” The eagerness in Ueda’s voice wasn’t hard to catch. “I’ve decided to live here, in Japan!! And you know that JE Company you’re working at? I get to work there too! It turned out that Uncle Johnny owns that company!” Ueda’s mouth formed an “O” shape in no time, and his eyes were as wide as ever. “Oh my god! Really!? Are you kidding?” Ueda was still shocked at everything that came out of his friend’s mouth. “No! It’s true! I get to work with you even! And I’m going to live here too! That is, if you let me.” Jiro stared at Ueda’s face with his innocent eyes. Ueda simple smiled and said, “Of course you can live here!! Oh my gosh! I haven’t seen you in years! Not since you went to Taiwan and study there.” Then Jiro wrapped his hands around Ueda’s neck possessively, not hiding his smile, he said, “Well, this time, I’m going to stay here as long as I want! We have a lot to catch up on!!”

As the two were still in their warm embrace and occasional giggles, Ueda seemed to have forgotten the man in his bathroom.

* Doorknob turned * *bathroom door opened * * Ryo shocked *

Ryo Nishikido had just taken a bath. One simple, 8 minutes bath. And when he came out, his lover was in the arms of an unknown man. An eight minutes bath. Ryo was still shocked and angry. Eight minutes ago his lover was still peacefully sleeping under the snow-white sheets, then BAM! He’s giggling and hugging this unknown man.

“RARRRRRRRHHHH!!!!!!” Ryo screamed and threw stuff and kicked and then screamed again. Can you see? Ryo is slowly turning into HULK!!!! “RARRRHHHHHHH!!!!!!”

“WHO THE HELL ARE YOU!” Ryo quickly stomped in front of the frozen shocked embracing couple, and ripped Jiro off of Ueda. “WHO THE HELL ARE YOU! AND WHY ARE YOU HUGGING MY TATSUYA!?” Ryo grabbed Jiro by the collar, and shook him while screaming out his questions.

“No! Ryo! Let him go! He’s my-“ Before Ueda could finish his sentence, Jiro punched Ryo in the face with an angry expression on his handsome face. “Ryo? Ryo Nishikido?” Jiro’s tone was furious and full of anger. “WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE? ARE YOU GONNA HURT TATSU AGAIN?” When Jiro had only barely finished his rampaging sentence, Ryo got up and returned the punch right at the side of Jiro’s face.

“YOU DIDN’T ANSWER MY QUESTION YET! AND WHO ARE YOU CALLING TATSU? HUH? I HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE HERE! I’M TATSUYA’S BOYFRIEND!” Ryo exclaimed while trying to punch Jiro again, and failed as Jiro dodged his attack. “DON’T TRY TO-“ Jiro froze for a moment after he let the last part of Ryo’s answer sink in. “Huh? What? Boyfriend?” It was then when the both of them turned to Ueda with questioned and furious faces.

“Um….How should I explain this….Well….” Ueda hesitated with every word that he spoke.

* * *

* BANGGGGGG! *

Ryo barged in NewS’ resting room so loud; everyone in KAT-TUN’s resting could hear the bang. All the members in both KAT-TUN and NewS’ resting room could feel the anger in Ryo’s presence (the members that had arrived anyways), so they all had decided to coward away. The members of NewS’ all sneaked away to KAT-TUN’s resting room as they try hard not to be captured by Ryo.

Then, it came a cheery Jiro skipping into KAT-TUN’s room with Ueda’s hand in his. “GOOD MORNING EVERYONE~” Jiro greeted everyone a good morning, then started introducing himself. “Hi, my name is Jiro, and I’ll be working here for a while. Oh! And Johnny san is my uncle! And Tatsu here, (pulling Ueda in his hug) is my best best friend!” After Jiro had introduced himself, jaws were dropped and eyes were widened.

Soon enough, Jiro had already be-friended with everyone. Jiro is a really nice and fun guy afterall. Now, they all realized why Ryo was in a bad mood today. A really bad mood. It turned out that Jiro is currently living in Ueda’s apartment, and that Jiro is an easy-going-baka-touchy feeling kind of guy.

“Yea I know! That drama was totally sad yet funny! I wish I could be the main character!!” Jiro was in the middle of a drama conversation with the group of KAT-TUN and NewS (except Ryo, he was sitting in the corner glaring at Jiro while clutching onto his shirt). It was then when Jiro started to enter in his own little fantasy world, smiling and giggling with his finger on his chin, staring at nowhere. “Yea, I wou;d like to….* giggles *” ß Jiro in his own little world. =)

“Ne…. Don’t you guys think that Jiro kind of remind you of…” Koki whispered close to the group as Jiro was still giggling in his own little world.

“GOOD MORNING EVERYONE~” Jin came barging in with YamaPi’s hand in his. (YamaPi’s here because he noticed his group’s resting room was filled with nothing but air, so he decided to follow his baka lover.)

“Jin.” Everyone in the group said Jin’s name flatly in response to Koki’s question. “Huh? Are you talking about me?” Jin tilted his head and asked.

“N-nothing…” The group answered the confused Jin.

When Jin was about to protest and pout his way to get the answer out of Koki, Jin’s eyes went straight to Jiro, who was giggling and staring at nowhere. “Ehh! Who is this? Do we have a new member??” Jin ran in front of Jiro and stared at him with his big, brown eyes. Jiro got out of his own little world, and stared back at Jin with his own big, brown eyes.

The two stared at each other for a good two minutes or so, and the rest of NewS and KAT-TUN just watched the scene like a movie, guessing what would happen next.

It was then when Ueda came in and said, “Um…. This is Akanishi Jin, from my group, KAT-TUN. And Jin, this is Jiro, my best friend, who just got back from Taiwan.”

Both Jin and Jiro tilted their heads at the same time for a moment, then…. something clicked. The two “bakas” immediately hugged each other and started talking like crazy, in languages too weird for other people to understand.

As the two bakas talk about just anything in their own little world, the rest of the two groups filled YamaPi in on the information about Jiro.

* * *

As the day went by, typical things happened. Ryo followed Ueda, Jin and Jiro everywhere with his glaring eyes narrowed at Jiro at ALL TIMES, and Jiro throwing funny faces at Ryo behind Ueda’s backs. Jin and Jiro being baka all day and banged their heads everywhere for no reason at all. At occasional times, when Ryo had no choice but to be apart from Ueda, he would kick and throw everything near him at innocent people who didn’t even say a word in 10 meters around Ryo.

Jiro accompanied Ueda and Jin all day, with laughs, giggles, and lots of talking. Jin and Jiro seemed to get along even better with Ueda. It was as if the Baka had found his other half of his Baka-world. Jin and Jiro.

No one could really understand the little world Jin and Jiro always go into, nor did anyone could understand the logics in Jin and Jiro’s minds.

* * *

When the working day almost ended, when Jin and Jiro were off in their own little world again, Ueda was pulled into the dressing room, which contained no one but him and Ryo.

“We need to talk, Tatsuya.”

To be continued....

ahhh.....the begining sounds kind of weird, and it's kinda hard to catch >_<
but there, i started it. I hope its as good as Do you hate me?, in a jealousy/funny way. Oh, and i'm gonna be going aweay for the summer, so I won't be able to update until at least September. SORRY >_< I might be able to update one last time before I go (July.21) Anywayz....I hope you like this begining. Feel free to give me any ideas for the next chapter =) thz